Also, I'm not in this dude's brain, but I am pretty positive he does NOT find you disgusting. Really, fucking truly-o. First of all, in general, crazy talk, though I know you don't believe it. Second, you guys have been intimate too many times for him to really be choking back loathing just to get laid. You can't fake that kind of physical connection, you know it's true. YOU KNOW. Your demons are just fucking with you while you're low.
pointing upward Nora is very wise.
As is everyone else in this thread, but Nora said what I was going to, so of course she's my favorite!
by the way - guys looking for a convienent ( I can't spell that word) fuck - don't hang out , take pictures to share with your friends , and lend their gloves. they just fuck and go.
And so is beth!
Fucking A. The work thing is heating up. So annoying.
I'm juliana's favorite!
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ION, my family is driving me bugshit crazy. I want to live far away from them.
I want to live far away from them.
Don't you? Or not far enough?
by the way - guys looking for a convienent ( I can't spell that word) fuck - don't hang out , take pictures to share with your friends , and lend their gloves. they just fuck and go.
Beth is wise. Also, they don't take care of you when you are sick, which I believe the boy did a while back.
Also, I'm not in this dude's brain, but I am pretty positive he does NOT find you disgusting. Really, fucking truly-o. First of all, in general, crazy talk, though I know you don't believe it. Second, you guys have been intimate too many times for him to really be choking back loathing just to get laid. You can't fake that kind of physical connection, you know it's true. YOU KNOW. Your demons are just fucking with you while you're low.
I keep telling myself that, and on occasion, it does actually register. On occasion. Today just isn't one of those occasions.
"I don't want to be crazy in love. I want to be sane in love."
Heh. *I* told *him* that. Not in so many words, of course, but I told him that if he *were* obsessed with me, I'd freak and run, and that his lack of obsession is *healthy.* But obsession feels normal to him, and I get that, but -- arrgh.
Also, a lot of people who have the conversation you had with The Boy? They wind up being with that person for a good long time. Because their relationship is already based on friendship and honest communication. Throw in the good sex and it's actually a pretty strong relationship you've got going.
This is what I tend to think, too. But I don't know what it's like in his brain. (Squishy, I imagine.)
Eventually, he'll either decide it's love or not. And it sounds like you're still having to decide that yourself because you've been pretty adamant about not using the "b" word.
Heh. Well, true. I even said last night "No! Don't use the 'D' word!" Which made him laugh.
reading both accounts you wrote - I think you really are on the same page - You both are skittish about going too far and too fast - and your doubts are when you are away from him - not with him.
This is true, yeah. And makes me feel better.
buy the way - guys looking for a convienent ( I can't spell that word) fuck - don't hang out , take pictures to share with your friends , and lend their gloves. they just fuck and go.
Also very true. Hmm.
It's the cold talking, Steph. Step away from thinking about relationships until you're getting oxygen to your brain.
Is true. I should actually try to take a nap. (I'm home from work today, because I feel like I've been hit by a truck. A medium-sized one, not a semi, but still a truck.)
You guys, THANKS. A lot.
They are in MA and CT. I would like to be several time zones away from them. But somehow still several time zones away from my MIL.
I just got an e-mail from Home Depot with the subject line: The Biggest Tool Event of the Year. I am 12.
Another strike against disability oppression: it's a total thread-killer.
I think today my body is making up for not eating while I was in the hospital. I've eaten like four times already. This is crazy. You'd think I was back on the steroids.
