Betsy, as far as I know, word hasn't gotten to anyone with pull. I have a little knot in the pit of my stomach (because he has access to more influential people), but I intend to ride this out with both insouciance and determination.

Although, all of the overdue library books are just sitting on my desk for the whole world to see and know that I fucked up. Ugh.

vw, I once had books out from my uni's library for so long that they charged my school account with the business office for replacing them - then when I finally brought them back, credited my account. They were so happy to see those books, they didn't even fine me. Not that I recommend this to you. If anyone gives you any grief (above the late fee) blame the asthma for depriving your brain of oxygen.

Do me a favor, please. Don't say anything to yourself about this that is harsher than what you would say to a beloved friend if it had been their mistake. You would never dream of being so mean to Emily as you are to yourself.

I am just beat today. It might be the asthma or I could actually be getting one of the thosand diseases that are surrounding me . I added one more drug back into the regime...

and in much more annoying news my cat is running around the house meowing desparately at me ... for no reason that I can guess.

ita, I don't understand your situation. Is your PT trying to, what? Ban you from krav?

You're an adult; if you want to, say, eat 3 punds of bacon and drink a liter of whiskey a day after undergoing a quad bypass, can your PT call the store and say "Don't sell her bacon?" Of course not. So how can he ban you from krav, even if he thinks it might lead to injury?

my cat is running around the house meowing desparately at me ... for no reason that I can guess.

Free-floating feline fear?

Is your PT trying to, what? Ban you from krav?

He's trying to get me to not take my brown belt test. To this end, he's called the front desk and told them they're not to let me test because it would be irresponsible, yadda yadda. He's also using scare tactics (on them, not me, because at least he realises I don't give a fuck) by dropping incendiary terms like quadraplegic. Sure, he says I'm at no more risk than your average joe of becoming one. But damage is already done in the listener's mind.

Suffice it to say, I'm beyond pissed. I'd type more, but it's making my head hurt to think about it.

ita, you should krav him. Just to prove you can.

ita, you should call his boss, or whatever organization he has to report to.

Use terms like "lawsuit" and "litigation" and "attorney."

(THERAPIST grunts and writhes in pain) ita: Come on, it's for your own good. OK. so, maybe I want to see that for me AND for ita.

Mostly I'm going to ignore him, loudly, because there's no real way to stop him. He's friendly with a number of instructors, and there's no way he'll keep his mouth shut.