Gud, you deserve a good life. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to be loved fully and freely. You deserve to be valued as you are - your best qualities properly appreciated, and your flaws graciously accepted (as we should all graciously accept the flaws of our loved ones). Please believe this. It will help you in remaking your life.

Nora, I am sorry that I forgot to update on work stuff last week. My first day back at work was last Friday, which was the same day I found out about T and family moving. The stuff with T made work stuff seem pretty insignificant. Anyway, I was on edge all day last Friday, but nothing was said to me. Big boss lady wasn't there, and I haven't seen her since, but this is mainly because my work hours have been cut to practically nothing (I have one definite hour next week and 4 possible hours). I was originally taking this as punishment, but it seems that everyone is going through this. The post holiday lack of funds. Anyway, thanks for asking.

sj, my sister started a retail job (Williams Sonoma in her case) around the time you did. She got scheduled for five hours this week as well.

sj, my sister started a retail job (Williams Sonoma in her case) around the time you did. She got scheduled for five hours this week as well.

Yup. It sucks. We have a big meeting on Saturday. I smell layoffs.

Thanks for the well wishes guys. Right now it's nice to hear. I'm trying to distract myself with cleaning the garage right now while I figure out what to do next.

My marrige seems hopeless and I have no idea what to do about it. I'm currently hating my life and hating myself. Ugh.

I'm sorry, Gud. Don't hate yourself, though. You're a good man and a great father. Marriages don't work for a lot of reasons. I hate to think of you going through a divorce, but I can say that there is life beyond divorce as well.

Gud, what Hec and everyone said. You've worked hard to make this marraige work, and if that's not sucessful, that doesn't speak at all to your worth as a person, or a father. You and your wife made and are raising two AMAZING kids and there's nothing that can take away from that, them being in the world, and your love for them, and their love for you. If the marriage can't work out, it's better to recognize that and move on to the next stage before anger and bitterness begin to creep in... I don't know if this is at all comforting but I am thinking of all 4 of you and hoping that you move to the other side of this anguish in the best way possible.

What everyone else said, {{{Gud}}}.

I am doing a playlist on iTunes called SHOVE IT! filled with angry cathartic songs I can play after a shitty day at work. It's fun! Any suggestions?

You've tried really hard, Gud. I've been impressed.ETA: "She Works Hard For The Money" "Take this Job and Shove It." "It's Five O' Clock Somewhere."