I feel like I need to be straight with you, because I'm really struggling right now.
I suffer from severe depression and anxiety. It's been under better control with medication and therapy, but last semester's other health concerns really threw me for a loop. I have a lot of anxiety related to work right now, because I've missed so much. I keep waiting to be let go, and so I dread coming into work, waiting for that ball to drop. And thus the circle continues. The anxiety around letting you guys down and not being reliable (the polar opposite of what I want) turns into physical illness (migraines, etc.) and such extreme anxiety that I can't leave the house.
I love my job. And you guys have been more than flexible with me--far more than I feel I deserve. But, I need to know where I stand. I want you to know that I know that the reliability is an issue. I am working on it. But, I also need to know if you guys are willing to continue working with me. If we could make some sort of plan, it would really help me a lot. It would reduce some of the anxiety about returning after missing again, and I think I'll be more productive.
I don't want to leave the center. I feel I have so much that I can learn there, and I want to do well and make you all proud.
Please let me know how you would like to proceed.