Is anyone around? Could I share an e-mail I'm about to send to my boss and ask for opinions?

I'm here. Shoot.

I feel like I need to be straight with you, because I'm really struggling right now.

I suffer from severe depression and anxiety. It's been under better control with medication and therapy, but last semester's other health concerns really threw me for a loop. I have a lot of anxiety related to work right now, because I've missed so much. I keep waiting to be let go, and so I dread coming into work, waiting for that ball to drop. And thus the circle continues. The anxiety around letting you guys down and not being reliable (the polar opposite of what I want) turns into physical illness (migraines, etc.) and such extreme anxiety that I can't leave the house.

I love my job. And you guys have been more than flexible with me--far more than I feel I deserve. But, I need to know where I stand. I want you to know that I know that the reliability is an issue. I am working on it. But, I also need to know if you guys are willing to continue working with me. If we could make some sort of plan, it would really help me a lot. It would reduce some of the anxiety about returning after missing again, and I think I'll be more productive.

I don't want to leave the center. I feel I have so much that I can learn there, and I want to do well and make you all proud.

Please let me know how you would like to proceed.

vw, I think that's a great letter.

I know Wilson's an oncologist and he's not on House's team, so what's his connection with House work-wise? Do they share an office?

Their offices are near one another and connected by an, apparently, private balcony.

They take coffee breaks at the same time?

Yep. And meals. And the cafeteria workers often ask if they're together at checkout. And House says "yes". And then Wilson pays for both.

They meet up for nooners?

Well, there's no evidence against it.

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I had a wonderful time at knitting/crochet group last night. And now I'm up and must get ready for work, but I'm terrified of going in. I'll either be fired or won't be fired. And both are terrifying.

I'm glad your group went well. And I hope work goes better than you're expecting. Your letter makes sense to me, and if I was an employer I'd feel better knowing where I stood with an employee, and knowing why they've been absent.

Good job, vw. I think you did great at laying out your concerns and what you hope to get out of this. I kind of feel like a bit more of a lead-in would be helpful, but that's my only quibble.

That's a good letter, {{{vw}}}. Much ~ma for going into work today.

Ok. Thanks, guys! Off it goes.

vw, I know you already sent the letter, but I think it was very well written. If I were the employer, I would really appreciate being filled in on what is going on.

I'm crocheting while I wait to hear back...to keep myself calm. Do we think I have a small, medium, or large head? I really don't know what size to make this hat. And it doesn't help that it doesn't give dimensions. That would be helpful.

Edit: I think I have a medium head. We're going to hope, anyway. Otherwise, there will be much ripping out.