Cass, 'ma to you and your family. And no googling.

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I'm not googling. (repeat as needed) I just wish I *knew* what was going on and what was going to happen. And I know that googling will honestly get me none of that, but the lure of some information is powerful. I'm not googling though. It's my mantra.

Sleep isn't working out so I am going to grab a shower and go from there It's just that I feel so disconnected right now.

beth, that is one effective day you've had there.

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When dealing with possible diagnoses, Google is a very, very, very bad resource. A couple of weeks ago I convinced myself I was coming down with either myasthenia gravis or diabetes based on eyesight deterioration.

Do not go there, for it is uggggllllleee.

Once you have a concrete diagnosis, it's a different matter.

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It's a week for the blood test for the colon cancer but it's apparently very accurate at least. I think we'll know basics before then from the bone scans and MRIs and the myriad of other tests. Maybe not where the cancer came from, but at least where it is and if there are treatment options. Just ... frustrating.

I really don't feel like being social tonight but the lure of a fireplace is winning me over. And that I can show up there in yoga pants. It's the Casual Friday of friendships.

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(((Cass)))

(((Cass's grandma)))

I really don't feel like being social tonight but the lure of a fireplace is winning me over. And that I can show up there in yoga pants. It's the Casual Friday of friendships.

Fireplace, yoga pants, Casual Friday: all of that sounds comforting and nourishing and very much of the good. Infinitely more so than staying home not-googling.

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Did you see my fireplace picture earlier? Every time I look at it makes me want to curl up in a blanket with snow coming down. It's very soothing.

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I missed the picture. Where can I find it? Thanks! Wonderful picture! It made me more motivated even.

Fireplace, yoga pants, Casual Friday: all of that sounds comforting and nourishing and very much of the good. Infinitely more so than staying home not-googling.

You are totally right. I'm just feeling stuck at the moment. I've packed an overnight bag (I mentioned the Casual Friday-ishness of the friends?) and really just need to grab a shower, pick up some wine and salad and drive up there. The traffic settled down early so I should get moving on these things.

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My caramelized onion relish is processing away nicely (except that a tripled recipe somehow only filled *5* jars, which means I have to make more tomorrow), and I am now contemplating dinner.

I have every kind of takeout in the world here. Why can't I make up my mind? It's probably down to either Indian or Thai.

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That's from Thanksgiving this year. There's a cute picture of me in that set. I'm a little sausagey in that sweater, but it was cold. But otherwise I like it, which I almost never do, so I'ma post that one too:

My sister, friend Tim, and me in the corner:

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Is it just that picture or do you and your sister look awfully alike, brenda? It's a great picture!

I have every kind of takeout in the world here. Why can't I make up my mind? It's probably down to either Indian or Thai.

Mmmm, takeout...

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