Yes--he wanted some woman not in the industry who'd be impressed with all the pomp and circumstance.

Whatev.

I have discovered that a particular sort of (I think) post-concussive headache comes with depression. It's creeping me the fuck out, but when this ache starts I feel completely useless. It's really creeping me the fuck out. It starts, and my self-worth plummets. I mean, I know I should feel a little discouraged right now (work stuff), but how I'm actually feeling is out of all perspective. And it happens every time it hurts this way.

Gah.

Ick, ita. You should mention that to whatever doctor(s) you see next about things.

It's creeping me the fuck out, but when this ache starts I feel completely useless.

I always know when I'm really sick because I completely lose the ability to deal with anything. Anything that doesn't involve crawling into bed seems impossible and frustrating. I get all emotional and shrill. It's godawful.

Oh ita, like you don't have enough challenges, right now. I'm so sorry.

Yes--he wanted some woman not in the industry who'd be impressed with all the pomp and circumstance.

in other words, someone no one knows who will be content to stand in the background and be referred to as John Stamos' wife/girlfriend.

It's not the worst headache I get, though. The pain is minimal compared to the migraines -- which depress me, but it's patently because I'm having Yet Another Migraine, and not about whatever's at hand. And the normal headaches that start from the back, or the sinus ones -- those are just irritating. It's the ones that start in my teeth and spread out to the nose and chin (and I think they're the ones that fuck with my speaking too) make me want to cry because I'm a waste of oxygen.

I generally give celebs a pass for stupidity in interviews. I figure that could have been a "I'd love to share this with someone who hasn't experienced it" sort of comment, as easily as a "I want a rube who's content to worship me" sort of thing.

The switcheroo, on the other hand, I can't get past that. I know he was young, and probably in over his head, but it makes my skin crawl.

ita, that just sucks. I keep hoping your docs will figure this out and make you better.

I always know when I'm really sick because I completely lose the ability to deal with anything.

Seconded. I get this way when I'm really sick or really really stressed.

ita, in all the testing you've had done, has anyone checked your hormone levels, thyroid, endocrine gland--that sort of thing? A lot of your headaches are due to the post-concussive condition (right?), but reading the description of the depressive one just make me think hormones (not in a dismissive way).

Speaking of hormones, did you all know that "stop going bald now!" treatments are banned for Olympic athletes? Me neither. It turns out Propecia went on the banned list last year, because one of its key ingredients can work as a masking agent for certain steroids. Gonna see a lot of bald athletes at international competitions in future.

Depressive episodes are bad. I'm gonna take a stand on that one.