Here's hoping everyone got to sleep eventually...

I am feeling super smug right now. As you probably know, I am extremely lazy. In school, I'd generally rather get a decent grade that I don't work that hard for, than a stellar grade I have to bust my ass to get. Last night, I was on the phone with a perfectionist friend, and she was angsting over getting a "good-not-great" comment on a paper she still got a good grade on. I just got mine back, and mine was "excellent"! Woo.

Why were you working yesterday, ita? That doesn't seem right.

Why were you working yesterday, ita? That doesn't seem right.

Well, I wasn't working as hard as I was supposed to.

However, and I say this in irritation and no little sleep dep -- [edited to remove work rant]

I'm so irritated with having to be den mother to people for whom I have no actual responsibility. They are not even in my department. It's frustrating, and what I was doing inbetween EEG and PT on Friday, and I really thought I'd proactively covered the span of them being flaky.

I'm pissed because this project is a big deal for their department, for the customer department, and finally for the company. And they just won't be sensible about it. And I suspect they aren't having "no initiative" talks with their managers.

Which reminds me, I should rat this one guy out to his boss.

And who knows how much of this post I'll leave standing. I'm just so mad right now (with concomitant headache). It's insane.

And I'm supposed to be the lazy one.

Which segues right into woo-hoo on your paper!

Good lord, that does sound irritating. Totally rat the one guy out.

Oh, ita, how irritating! I was coming here to whine, but now I've lost all my whinyness on behalf on being angry for you.

Which, here too, goes to woo-hooing Jesse.

[Edit: and saying hello to the new thread, just under 1kb of posts numbers.]

Okay, I calmed down mid-ratting out to check my voice mail and assure there isn't a reasonable explanation waiting on it for me.

There's not.

Back to e-mail...

You know, ita, I heard there was a jackhole award being organized on lj.... Maybe you need to nominate someone?

Hey Nilly! Whyfore whiny?

There's not.

Hey, *I* am still angry on your behalf.

Whyfore whiny?

t whine The computer that was supposed to be fixed last week (after keeping up with freezing on me, making me lose weeks of data and results), works now slower than it used to, lost a directory which I can hardly work without, and all the (little that it had) Hebrew fonts, so I can't even read e-mails from students. On top of that, the people who were supposed to deliver the stove postponed the delivery from a week (like it says on their website) to two weeks, so we won't be able to cook anything until Friday, at least. And I didn't even finish half the grading I had to finish for last week t /whine t /for now, at least

In-my-life life jackholes...

You know, all this makes me upset about me too. Because I can't deal with stress right now -- it just makes me physically ill. And I can barely make it through a 40 hour work week in the office. I don't want to have to feel bad about saying "You're the adults. I'm just the project manager. Good luck, and update me when you're done." so I can sit around for my only free day in a week, a day when hanging out with my best friend tires me so much and so self-consciously.

I know that's not a lot to ask for, but I haven't yet ditched the "well, maybe if I'd called repeatedly someone would have admitted to me that they hadn't checked stuff out" guilt/anxiety.

Grownups, right? When did I become more grownup than other gainfully employed people? That wasn't supposed to happen.

And I'm the one that's going to be on the receiving end of a come-to-Jesus talk for all this, and for not showing enough initiative. I don't have any left. What I have instead is a migraine at five o'clock on a Sunday morning. It's not a fair trade.

Nilly-- those aren't whines. Those are gripes. Don't feel self-conscious.

I don't want to have to feel bad about saying "You're the adults. I'm just the project manager. Good luck, and update me when you're done."

I know this doesn't necessarily help, but you really shouldn't feel bad about that. Would it help if I told you that I learned in my Project Management class that a key aspect of a successful project is having staff members who can do their jobs without handholding? Because I did.

And goodness, Nilly, what a pile of crap to deal with! You whine all you want.