No pre-school butterflies, sj. You've done school before. You'll be fine.
Yes, I've done school before, but badly. Or, college at least. Most of my college experience has ended up in depressive relapses and me sitting in a corner of my room unable to move.
Go, Jen! I hope the cutie takes you up on that beer soon.
NO PANICKING! Think of all the fun new books! That’s what I do at the beginning of the semester. It’s the end where I panic :)
You're right, I really should find out if the books are availible yet and go look for cool school supplies. The beginning was always my favorite part about school. As far as panicking at the end of the semester, I am just hoping I make it that far this time.
Vet~ma to Toto. I am glad to hear he is doing better.
I acquired a library card yesterday and will be looking to see if any of my school books are available from the library system. I am SO EXCITED for my new library card. Also, I registered to vote! I am totally a productive Salem citizen now!
Something just came across my desk from the Janet Weiss Children's Hospital. Does that seem wrong to you?
Dave caught a glimpse of my previous post, and now I think he left for work worried about me. I'm not sure he gets the whole depression/anxiety thing really. He is being very supportive, but he doesn't seem to understand why if I am smart enough and I have the time for it, why I am even worried about school at all.
he doesn't seem to understand why if I am smart enough and I have the time for it, why I am even worried about school at all.
I agree! :)
Well, no, I know what you mean. Sometimes it's hard to believe that others think I am more capable than I believe myself to be... It is panic-making sometimes.
he doesn't seem to understand why if I am smart enough and I have the time for it, why I am even worried about school at all.
People who don't experience it tend to rationalize. There's nothing rational about it. But making the effort to understand and support you is what counts.
Ack! My boss is stuck at home due to rotting corpse issues.
Apparently a guy two floors above her died like
six weeks ago
and they only just found him. And her apartment is all maggot- and horsefly-infested.
Not enough ew in the world.
Apparently a guy two floors above her died like six weeks ago and they only just found him. And her apartment is all maggot- and horsefly-infested.
Suddenly, not so worried about how dirty my own house is.
That is profoundly creepifying.
Apparently a guy two floors above her died like six weeks ago and they only just found him. And her apartment is all maggot- and horsefly-infested.
Ewww ewww ewww.
Well, no, I know what you mean. Sometimes it's hard to believe that others think I am more capable than I believe myself to be... It is panic-making sometimes.
Yes, this exactly. I get the of course you can do it, and all I can think is, then if I can't that makes me more of a failure, right? Because everyone thinks this should be so easy for me.
People who don't experience it tend to rationalize. There's nothing rational about it. But making the effort to understand and support you is what counts.
He does make the effort; I don't think I would even be attempting this right now if it wasn't for Dave. He is so amazingly supportive, and nothing I have said should be taken as complaining about him, because I am really not. Like you said, he hasn't been there and that makes it difficult for him to understand where I am coming from. I wish I could learn to see myself as he sees me.
