Dave caught a glimpse of my previous post, and now I think he left for work worried about me. I'm not sure he gets the whole depression/anxiety thing really. He is being very supportive, but he doesn't seem to understand why if I am smart enough and I have the time for it, why I am even worried about school at all.
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sj - Aug 19, 2005 5:37:44 am PDT #7332 of 10001
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Nora Deirdre - Aug 19, 2005 5:49:02 am PDT #7333 of 10001
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
he doesn't seem to understand why if I am smart enough and I have the time for it, why I am even worried about school at all.
I agree! :)
Well, no, I know what you mean. Sometimes it's hard to believe that others think I am more capable than I believe myself to be... It is panic-making sometimes.
Cashmere - Aug 19, 2005 5:52:13 am PDT #7334 of 10001
Now tagless for your comfort.
he doesn't seem to understand why if I am smart enough and I have the time for it, why I am even worried about school at all.
People who don't experience it tend to rationalize. There's nothing rational about it. But making the effort to understand and support you is what counts.
brenda m - Aug 19, 2005 5:53:42 am PDT #7335 of 10001
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there
Ack! My boss is stuck at home due to rotting corpse issues.
Apparently a guy two floors above her died like six weeks ago and they only just found him. And her apartment is all maggot- and horsefly-infested.
Not enough ew in the world.
Cashmere - Aug 19, 2005 5:54:27 am PDT #7336 of 10001
Now tagless for your comfort.
Apparently a guy two floors above her died like six weeks ago and they only just found him. And her apartment is all maggot- and horsefly-infested.
Suddenly, not so worried about how dirty my own house is.
Scrappy - Aug 19, 2005 5:59:34 am PDT #7337 of 10001
Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.
That is profoundly creepifying.
sj - Aug 19, 2005 6:00:16 am PDT #7338 of 10001
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Apparently a guy two floors above her died like six weeks ago and they only just found him. And her apartment is all maggot- and horsefly-infested.
Ewww ewww ewww.
Well, no, I know what you mean. Sometimes it's hard to believe that others think I am more capable than I believe myself to be... It is panic-making sometimes.
Yes, this exactly. I get the of course you can do it, and all I can think is, then if I can't that makes me more of a failure, right? Because everyone thinks this should be so easy for me.
People who don't experience it tend to rationalize. There's nothing rational about it. But making the effort to understand and support you is what counts.
He does make the effort; I don't think I would even be attempting this right now if it wasn't for Dave. He is so amazingly supportive, and nothing I have said should be taken as complaining about him, because I am really not. Like you said, he hasn't been there and that makes it difficult for him to understand where I am coming from. I wish I could learn to see myself as he sees me.
lisah - Aug 19, 2005 6:01:55 am PDT #7339 of 10001
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Apparently a guy two floors above her died like six weeks ago and they only just found him. And her apartment is all maggot- and horsefly-infested.
And suddenly my irritation at my neighbor leaving standing water in some plant pots underneath his deck fades away.
Nora Deirdre - Aug 19, 2005 6:02:09 am PDT #7340 of 10001
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
I wish I could learn to see myself as he sees me.
It could happen, in time... I think both Tom and I have both benefitted from this phenomenon.
sj - Aug 19, 2005 6:09:19 am PDT #7341 of 10001
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Grr. After weeks of complaining, they are coming to fix my floors right now. I don't want people in my apartment this morning. Plus, it means I had to put on pants. t /tired and cranky
ETA: They already came and went, not having any metal strips to keep the floors from curling up. They'll be back Monday.