glad your mom came through the procedure OK, erika.

I forgot to mention, with my temper tantrum earlier: we got some Chocolate Therapy from the Kwik-e-Mart around the corner, last night. It is yummy!

And, thanks for letting me blow off craxiness earlier.

ION, I'm so tired I'm nauseous. So, off to bed I go.

erika, if your mom really needs a diversion, have her Throw Rocks at Boys. It's good for what ails, sometimes... [link]

I forgot to mention, with my temper tantrum earlier: we got some Chocolate Therapy from the Kwik-e-Mart around the corner, last night. It is yummy!

t smack forehead

I knew I forgot something at the grocery store.

t remembers the pint of Graeters butter pecan in the freezer

nebbermind.

No Chocolate Therapy within 40 miles of me. It's probably a good thing, but crap.

For Jilli & Aimee and vw.

Hannah Fury talks about reading Wicked:

BLG: I have to ask you about the cycle of "Wicked" songs inspired by the book of the same name by Gregory Maguire. How did you come to write them?

HF: So, regarding the Wicked songs: A friend lent me "Wicked," and I was completely lost in it. Obviously the book itself is wonderful, so imaginative and beautifully written. Perfect, really. Gregory Maguire is amazing. But mostly it was the main character herself that touched me so deeply. I really think Elphaba separated from the story at some point and became absolutely real to me. I became totally obsessed with her and thought about her constantly and for a long time after finished the book. It felt like I had a crush on her, or was even in love, because she was always on my mind, and I had this longing feeling that I can't describe. It was like I had lost her when I finished the book, and so there was this emptiness, this sadness. It just felt like my heart was broken. But her ghost was always there, haunting me. I wasn't able to concentrate or anything. It was the weirdest thing, very sorrowful and difficult emotionally, but very wonderful too.

I think I really identified with her and understood her in a lot of ways, too. How she was so misunderstood and alone, how people thought she was too strong to need love, how she was thought of as evil, and had to feel that way about herself, how she felt ugly and different and so she devised ways to protect herself because she was really very sensitive, and the fact that she sang "songs of longing and otherness." There were times when I felt so close to her that I'd almost say I became her.

So the songs came out of that obsession, that love for her, that desire to help her. They just came one after the other, and all of a sudden I had six of them. Some of them were written through her in her voice, and others were written for her in my voice. Five are on the album and the last one will be on a single.

And Steph, your description of your dad's behavior made me literally groan in recognition.

Beej, thanks for the book recommendation -- I just checked my library's website, and put it on reserve.

Hec, that's really cool. Gonna go check her out now.

That is very cool.

Hannah Fury, eh? Huh. Probably not so much available in Cairo.

kicks table.

Dinner was homemade crab quiche. Yum-mee.

Did you work with Dr. Ellis for the copy? ... Any idea when the new copy will come out?

No, to the first question -- with new editions, I'm usually asked just to revamp the old copy and add a new spin. And my notes say it's coming out in February 2006. I hope there's a new look for the cover, too. The old one was pretty bare bones.

I just checked my library's website, and put it on reserve.

Tep, if you like it, I can get you a copy, I bet. If I hadn't sent back the one I used for writing the copy, I would have sent it on.

I had a good day today. I called T because she took a mental health day from work, and we went out with my mother shopping. It was fun, kind of like what we used to do when T and I were little girls.

sj, new Lily pictures start here: [link]

Thanks Teppy! She is getting prettier every day. I love the shirt that JZ made for her, and I love that skirt Jilli is wearing.

Annabel is getting so big! She looks a lot less like a baby and a lot more like a little girl.

So far, all I have is the intent, the resolve, that there are going to be some boundaries, by god. My actual follow-through, however, hasn't been so great. When the ignoring of boundaries comes from the other person's neediness, I'm unable to say Cut That Shit Out, because I'm too afraid of hurting the other person. Particularly when it's my Dad. Or a close friend.

{{{Teppy}}} Know what you need to work on and having the intent to work on it is half the battle. You'll get there, though maybe not as much with you Dad as you would like to. Parents can be tough. My mom does the constantly checking in thing with me too. I find it easier to just put up with it and cut the conversation short because I am "busy". Good luck.

I'm gonna be in Vermont in 3 weeks -- Ben & Jerry's tour, baby!!!

Teppy, are you going to have any time to spend with the Sommervillians?

Also, I forgot to say this in my last post. I got my grade back for my summer session class that I almost withdrew from.

A

Yay, vw!!! More amunition to throw at you when you say you can't do it. Go you!