I just came back from getting my toes all prettied up. Need to do the lashes again soon, too.

I was just crazy enough to apply for an extra student loan to help me get through with the decreased income. I think, with the way the woman on the phone handled it, I got denied...but I'm waiting for the e-mail to confirm that.

I'm frustrated. I need someone to take a chance on me. I know my credit is terrible, but I'm trying. I'm trying really, really hard. And I need some help to get through school. And I just feel like such a stupid failure.

I can relate, Bug.

Not a failure, vw. You were blindsided by an unexpected financial shortfall and you're coping as best you can. Good luck with the loan. You never know.

It was denied. I can write a big long letter explaining everything on my credit report and try to get them to re-look at it, but it's probably not gonna happen. Oh, well.

I just feel like such a stupid failure.

With your GPA? Puh-lease. As for the money, the SYSTEM is a failure, not you.

I know it's stupid. When it comes to money, I just can't keep myself from going to that failure place. Work is going great. School is going great. I'm holding up two jobs, school, home (kind of), etc. But I just can't get caught up with money. And it's such a taboo subject. I kind of can't believe I'm even talking about it here. I just...I'm so sick of feeling like a leech and failure in that boat.

So I may have jumped to a tiny conclusion this morning. My old employers are replacing another person at my level, not my exact job. And while I still would have liked them to call me first, the truth is I wouldn't have wanted to take her position anyhow, especially since I've been interviewing for easier jobs that pay more.

So yeah, they aren't quite the assholes I made them out to be.

And I should get my brows done this weekend. I can pluck them myself, but waxing is so much faster and they always look pretty when I have them done.

I'm glad you found that out, LJ. Not fired.

You're in a tough situation, vw. You live in an expensive area and you're going to school, so your income potential is limited. A friend of mine is trying to borrow the money to pay her bankruptcy fees - also not her fault, but probably a worse situation. You're doing what you can, and from where I'm sitting it seems like you are doing a lot.

vw, the way I look at it is that you are making a long term investment in your education, which will pay off financially in the long run, so you are actually being fiscally wise. If you were sitting around wathing TV and smoking pot all day and night, yeah, your debt might be a reflection on you, but you are doing EXACTLY what you should be doing to make yourself financially sound.