vw, you can put all the extras in your live journal, the way a director's cut or bonus features are on a DVD, but not included in the cinematic release. You know people like us will want to see it.

Well, there is very likely going to be an extended version developed as my Senior Thesis. So, it may be a little while before you get to see it, but it'll be there eventually.

I feel like I'm just skimming the surface, though, with this paper. It's almost kind of frustrating.

Things I've done today:

• Played around with Sims 2.
• Made Sims people.
• Discovered you can put make up on the guys.
• Played Astropop way too many times
• Started 2 new books (and have about 5 to finish)
• went and ate Chinese with dad instead of ordering pizza & watching a movie because Netflix isn't due until Wed
• decided to finally get the mail -- Neflix!
• now going to watch Farscape!

It needs some work, but the paper for Incomplete number 4 has a rough draft.

I honestly can't believe it. There was a large part of me that thought these would never be done. Not only are they almost done, but I probably have my thesis topic (and a good start on it). This is amazing.

Remember this moment, vw, the next time schoolwork's looking bleak.

The unexpected is just around the corner.

I'm going to try very hard.

It's so weird. Last semester I could hardly take two classes...and I didn't finish them. Now I'm whipping through these incompletes, doing fine in all of my classes and talking about taking four classes this summer and next semester. Such a different place. It's crazy.

Curious about Sims. Is it good? Is it worthwhile? Will it suck up all my available time and make me fail all my classes and skip Algebra?

go VW!!!!!!!!

- showered

-stacked cats

time to eat and head off to Saturday night at the silent movies. with a trip to borderd to see if bead unique is in, since my bead store owner is in it

Things I did today:

• walked for about 1.5 hours with dogs. I do this *all the time* but apparently I won't be doing it again for a while because I have overused some muscle attached to my pubic bone and it hurts. bad.
• talked to parents, grandparents, and neighbors on the phone
• watched about 15 minutes of Safety Canary
• had dinner with new friend and her 8 week old son. Baby was very cute. Friend was fun. I had salad, bread, filet mignon, baked potato, crab cakes, and apple crumble with vanilla ice cream and it all WFG! I haven't had a meal that good in months.

eta: I also read what P-C posted for me about infant HIV, although I haven't commented yet because, as you can see, I had such a full day.

Aimee, how goes it?

It goes well. Emeline is thriving - she was 23 inches, 10 lbs 7 oz at her last appointment on 2/7. She is eating A LOT and sleeping through the night pretty consistently. The trick with her is keeping her on the boob for at least a half hour brfore putting her down. She's pretty happy - only really fusses when she's hungry or dirty. She spits up a lot. We do a lot of laundry.

Personally, I am doing ok. The weight is coming off somewhat quickly - 42 lbs since 11/30, but, not as fast as I wanted. I love love love being a mom and my patience has increased a thousand fold. I find myself not giving outside sources as much power to affect me as I had before. I have realized that above any and everything else, I am a mommy and raising this little girl is the most important job I'll ever have and anything else is secondary. Becoming a mom has really brought home the fact that I need to make a change job/careerwise. I need to find something that makes me feel good - or at least better - about being away from Emeline. I don't much see the point in spending 8+ hours a day away from her if I hate and despise what I do. So, I'll give my current job about another 3 months or so and then, I'm really gonna have to see what else I am qualified for that will be a bit more fulfilling.

MM and I are adjusting our relationship to allow for more patience for each other while we learn how to be parents and are trying to relearn how to be a couple. We have been honest and open about everything but sometimes we get frustrated at not having the "us" we were for 8 years and still not being used to the new "us" having Emeline has created.

The next few weeks after I go back to work are going to be......interesting? Readjusting to the work week is going to be hard. Hopefully, there will be no removing of anyone's head with dull or blunt intruments.

Well, see if I ever pour my heart again.

Stoopid dead thread.

Hmph.