Suicide memorials are of the FUCKING SUCK. Oh my Jesus fucking gawd.

Wrod.

I know so many people have it so much worse than I do. But I'm tired of each and every little thing going wrong and becoming a large obstacle. I'm just so tired.

Nora, I am convinced that in some ways, having a whole bunch of 'little' things going wrong is worse in some ways than having one, defineable major crisis to deal with. It's exhausting to have to keep one's mind up to fighting a whole bunch of battles on a million different fronts, even if those battles seem to be small.

{{{Nora}}

Browsing California real estate sites. Bad Kristin!

Good Kristin! You're excited. It happens.

Kristin has a new tag, "fate's bitch," and I like that she's tagging Wonderfalls, cause it was WF that brought her here, so it's as if it was in fact her fate to find the Buffistas and bless us with her presence, though she joined before I did, so I don't know why I'm including myself in this whole fate manifesto.

{{{Nora}}}

I hope today is much much better.

Pick me up some land in California while you're at it, Kristin. I could use some.

Aww. But it's such a sweet fake manifesto.

My one year Buffistaversary is next month. I can't believe it.

Also, {{{{Nora}}}}. I am so sorry. Suicide memorials are awful.

I know so many people have it so much worse than I do. But I'm tired of each and every little thing going wrong and becoming a large obstacle. I'm just so tired.

There's always someone who has things worse. I've got a good solid job and no one's trying to bomb the bus I ride to work. Regardless, I've learned that the "Cheer up, at least you're not having X" things is a counter-productive method of coping. Your pain is your pain. No one else's pain is like yours, and yours is just as legitimate as everyone else's. ERs don't tell the folks with broken legs, "Look, shut up and go home, we've got a sucking chest wound here." It might not get the full crash cart and sprinting nurses treatment, but it gets treated seriously.

Hmm, I should avoid metaphors before breakfast. Must consume food and caffeine.

{{{Nora}}}

My one year Buffistaversary is next month. I can't believe it.

Alright, did people get the jello, wax, bendi-straws and penguins for the "ceremony"?

I've learned that the "Cheer up, at least you're not having X" things is a counter-productive method of coping. Your pain is your pain.

I know, I'm just prone to guilt.

{{Nora}}

I started a new LiveJournal where I write detailed reports of each of my appointments.

Good idea. I had a roommate who used to do this and also write down how she was feeling everyday so that when she went in for appointments she could pull out her journal and accurately describe her problems (they were many).

it was in fact her fate to find the Buffistas and bless us with her presence, though she joined before I did, so I don't know why I'm including myself in this whole fate manifesto.

Yes, I'm still a newbie, but it was my fate to join here (and thank goodness it happened!). How can you say otherwise as I click "Post message"?

Alright, did people get the jello, wax, bendi-straws and penguins for the "ceremony"?

Is it wrong that I'm now looking forward to this?

Is it wrong that I'm now looking forward to this?

It's fate. Amor fati, baby.