Ugh, are you getting enough rest at least?

Yeah. This is the first night it's really been bad. Usually I'm up again by 1am and can easily take another sleeping pill. I'm a little restless in bed, but I've been getting enough sleep. I'll take a nap later today (probably around 10:30am), and I'll be fine.

This anti-depressant is helping so much that I'm willing to ride out this weird sleeping thing. It happened the last time we increased it, but died down in a week or so. I can hold on that long.

Oh, and cold medicine can definitely do that. Are you going to try to get to work today or stay home? I'm glad the Ambien works for you. Sleep really is so important. I'm glad there are aids out there now that really work.

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This anti-depressant is helping so much that I'm willing to ride out this weird sleeping thing.

21 Gunn salute on an AD that works and helps. They should be given a shrine too.

The cold med is definitely messing with stuff, though insomnia has been a life-long pal of mine. I work from home so work tomorrow is iffy but only down the hall. And I can stumble into the office late if need be.

Ambien is a dream in that it really does help. My doctor doesn't like to give me much and interrogates me for every refill but it works and he does write the script with minimal hair tearing on my part.

So glad there are sleep aids that work finally. Made a huge difference in my life.

Also, insent.

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21 Gunn salute on an AD that works and helps. They should be given a shrine too.

Oh. My. God. You have NO idea. We have struggled over the last two years to find SOMETHING. ANYTHING. We've literally tried every class of antidepressant. Finally, this new drug, Cymbalta (I think that may be spelled wrong) came out in October. My shrink thought it may just be the right combo for me. So far, so good.

I think another thing that has helped me is that I'm no longer expecting the drug to fix everything. There is a lot of work that I have to do, and do do, in therapy. I've really noticed that recently it's a lot easier to do that work, and I think it's the new medication. Plus, when my sleep isn't getting screwed up by an increase, I sleep pretty regular hours, which is nice. My concentration and memory are still big trouble points, but I think even they are getting a little better.

I don't know if I've said this on the board or not, but I really feel like, going into this semester, that I'm going to make it through. It's the first time I've felt that way since starting at UMass Boston. I really think I can do this. It's an amazing feeling.

Also, backflung.

and, on edit, I think I'm gonna go try to sneak a couple more hours of sleep in. Night, board! Night, Cass! Sweet dreams.

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Oh. My. God. You have NO idea. We have struggled over the last two years to find SOMETHING. ANYTHING. We've literally tried every class of antidepressant.

I really wish I had no idea, but I know exactly what you mean. "Have you tried X?" "Yes... Didn't work and wicked side effects. You should take notes in that file of mine."

And as far as we ever got is something that helps marginally. I am relying on other skills and cog therapy these days, and like you said, realizing that no drug is going to make things just magically okay.

Not true, one combination worked total miracles but my Dr didn't like the side effects enough and took it off the table.

But I can kinda see a way out that will be a lot of work but also will be a way out. And that is the important part.

I don't know if I've said this on the board or not, but I really feel like, going into this semester, that I'm going to make it through. It's the first time I've felt that way since starting at UMass Boston. I really think I can do this. It's an amazing feeling.

YAY!

And flung back again. Thanks vw.

eta: Night vw. get some sleep. I am off to that dream within a dream too. At least, that's ny plan...

eAgainta: Sleepy. Pleasant dreams for all the Buffistas.

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I don't know if I've said this on the board or not, but I really feel like, going into this semester, that I'm going to make it through. It's the first time I've felt that way since starting at UMass Boston. I really think I can do this. It's an amazing feeling.

What a nice thing to read first thing in the morning, vw.

Nighty night, Cass.

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and do do, in therapy

vw said do do t /12 yo

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Laura, did you watch the SotU and melt your branze?

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I did peak a couple times to watch the crowd pop up and down. Some guy in a red tie was talking about arming and training terroriststhe army in Iraq. Then he said something about the stock market being safer than our government. At that point #1 came in and changed the station to music. He was so sweet and serious in suggesting that it was going to make me crazy to watch.

I tried to read, but my mind was dead from a long day. I ended up watching General Hospital until TDS came on. I hadn't watched GH in many years. I enjoyed it even though I didn't know several of the characters, perhaps because I didn't know them. It was better than watching the analysis or something that required me to focus.

Out the door to take the first shift to school. Later..

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I did not watch the SotU last night. I do not even want to know. My capacity for denial is quite large.

Was cheered about vw's assessments of this new AD and general feelings. Yay.

I am going to a memorial service today for the subway jumper. His death affected a lot of people in my community, and I want to be there for them. Gotta support the survivors.

Family party this weekend is a mess. Everyone's stressed and mad at each other. Can't even articulate issues or stresses. It's all the same old crap, and it will culminate in an evening of everyone hanging out. With alcohol. So much fun.

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Then he said something about the stock market being safer than our government.

I fucking hate those people.

Sorry.

Who kept this country from falling apart during the great depression? Was it the stock market?

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