Oh. My. God. You have NO idea. We have struggled over the last two years to find SOMETHING. ANYTHING. We've literally tried every class of antidepressant.
I really wish I had no idea, but I know exactly what you mean. "Have you tried X?" "Yes... Didn't work and wicked side effects. You should take notes in that file of mine."
And as far as we ever got is something that helps marginally. I am relying on other skills and cog therapy these days, and like you said, realizing that no drug is going to make things just magically okay.
Not true, one combination worked total miracles but my Dr didn't like the side effects enough and took it off the table.
But I can kinda see a way out that will be a lot of work but also will be a way out. And that is the important part.
I don't know if I've said this on the board or not, but I really feel like, going into this semester, that I'm going to make it through. It's the first time I've felt that way since starting at UMass Boston. I really think I can do this. It's an amazing feeling.
YAY!
And flung back again. Thanks vw.
eta: Night vw. get some sleep. I am off to that dream within a dream too. At least, that's ny plan...
eAgainta: Sleepy. Pleasant dreams for all the Buffistas.
I don't know if I've said this on the board or not, but I really feel like, going into this semester, that I'm going to make it through. It's the first time I've felt that way since starting at UMass Boston. I really think I can do this. It's an amazing feeling.
What a nice thing to read first thing in the morning, vw.
Nighty night, Cass.
Laura, did you watch the SotU and melt your branze?
I did peak a couple times to watch the crowd pop up and down. Some guy in a red tie was talking about arming and training terroriststhe army in Iraq. Then he said something about the stock market being safer than our government. At that point #1 came in and changed the station to music. He was so sweet and serious in suggesting that it was going to make me crazy to watch.
I tried to read, but my mind was dead from a long day. I ended up watching
General Hospital
until TDS came on. I hadn't watched GH in many years. I enjoyed it even though I didn't know several of the characters, perhaps because I didn't know them. It was better than watching the analysis or something that required me to focus.
Out the door to take the first shift to school. Later..
I did not watch the SotU last night. I do not even want to know. My capacity for denial is quite large.
Was cheered about vw's assessments of this new AD and general feelings. Yay.
I am going to a memorial service today for the subway jumper. His death affected a lot of people in my community, and I want to be there for them. Gotta support the survivors.
Family party this weekend is a mess. Everyone's stressed and mad at each other. Can't even articulate issues or stresses. It's all the same old crap, and it will culminate in an evening of everyone hanging out. With alcohol. So much fun.
Then he said something about the stock market being safer than our government.
I fucking hate those people.
Sorry.
Who kept this country from falling apart during the great depression? Was it the stock market?
I'm going to release all the apartment~ma back into the wild. It's confirmed I have the place and with only a $50 increase in the rent!!
Not sure when I'll be moving, sometime in May or June. I'm so excited!
Great news, askye!
vw, it's really good to hear that the new AD is working for you. Once that positive feeling gets going it's like the little engine that could.
Nora, I'm with you on the SotU. I'm depressed enough about the way the country's being run, I don't need to be wrapping my head in tinfoil and spoiling my coif just to try to filter out the Shrub's bad karma. Better to just say no to the SotU.
I, too, am off to a memorial service. For the brother-in-law-in-law. I meet my dad, brother and nephew and away we go. Not being made easier by the fact I've come down with a nasty cold and the snot monster from hell has taken up residence in my head. Meanwhile, my throat feels like someone snuck in in the middle of the night and coated it with sandpaper. I have vitamin drops and cold medicine, I have not cough drops. Must to stop on the way to dad's to pick some up. Along with coffee. Have a nice day, Bitches.
Who kept this country from falling apart during the great depression? Was it the stock market?
All fairness to the stock market, it was correcting stupidity on a massive scale. But yeah, also massive effort on the part of the government to help it's citizens afterwards.
Sigh
