tries to calculate what time it is for P-C and what time his body likely thinks it is

It's past three in the morning, and my body thinks it's almost three in the afternoon.

Goodnight.

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Sunil is back! Yay!

Not that I've been much better in touch than him...

I should really stop taking this "Let's have a ridiculously social college life for my last two terms" idea so seriously. Really gets in the way of my internet / TV life.

Hmm. Maybe not.

I would like to announce that I have a truly lovely girlfriend now. Who thinks that anything related to internet fandom is utterly insane, but finds my insanity endearing. She is providing even more distractions than college. I may be rather skippy for... a long while.

But I do love you all.

t /drunk posts

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I read that book years ago, and that line has always stuck with me.

My Favorite Messed Up Fiction EVAh111!1... My copy is all marked up. I never ever deface the wonder that is a book (I typed "that is a god" three times. Stupid Jesus trying to make my fingers his minions.) but this one had things I needed to hear, and be able to find again. I have lots of things underlined in there. With some bracketting. I have created a new language for the literate but disturbed.

I'm sorry I wasn't here earlier, but I add my part to the hive-mind's wish for your getting through this, and recovery. Never feel you can't bring us a need to be understood, or listened to.

Thank you. I am trying really hard to do this. And it has been wonderful.

But you will get through it. All the punctuation, hair-pats, and glitter you want is yours.

Can these offers be combined into a soothed, loved and glitterific vision of Cass?

I would like to announce that I have a truly lovely girlfriend now. Who thinks that anything related to internet fandom is utterly insane, but finds my insanity endearing.

Yay Nova!

I tooked an Ambien. I having trouble with words when made into English. Well not the words so much as the sense. Let this be me falling asleep.

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Sunil! so glad to see you back - thank you for being a great secret santa ( see the end of the year thread)

yay for nova!

everyone who needs a lift should go to the end of Natter and read my Nilly dream. - dreams with Nilly are a really good thing.

I hope you are asleep, Cass. and while I'm not sure of the concept of soul mates, I do know that no one knows me better. pretty much I would feel like I chopping out some irregular shaped part of me... I am really glad you came to talk to us.

One of my friends went through a divorce when she discoverd /acknowledged that she was gay. Her husband , was still some one she cared deeply about. her family catholic , didn't speak to her for a year ( they though- at thirty) that this was a phase. Haveing willow on buffy helped her make it. Lucky you - you have hundreds of Buffistas at you side. So , so sorry you are going through this

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P-C, I am glad you are back. We were relatively certain you were far from harm's way, but like someone said upstream, weren't sure of your family's itinerary for the whole, long trip.

Cass, strength to you. I hate the no-way-out-but-through situations and hope your journey through is quicker than it seems like it will be right now, and that when you get to the other end of it, you'll feel renewed. I sent you gmail yesterday, but it was...well, you'll see.

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Cass, I'm so sorry for all you're going through. It sucks, it really does.

One of the Useful Concepts I got from my divorce book was the idea of Negative Intimacy (and also, more applicable in my case, Neutral Intimacy). That deep knowledge of somebody can get flipped pretty quickly during a separation - crazy mirror world where the love becomes contempt and the trust is pain.

Yeah, I know what you're saying. If I may be permitted a small piece of relief, it's that Bec and I managed to avoid this.

I'm back in Melbourne, got back tonight. I haven't found a place to stay, being otherwise occupied over the last fortnight. (We did put in one offer, but it was knocked back.) Nonetheless, I need to move on Tuesday, as the owner of this flat is returning. I won't be out on the street, at worst I'll move in with my brother, but I just wish I could get everything else off my back and focus on things like learning the new job and dealing with my emotions.

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B-T, so hard to deal with this uncertainty on top of the losses you have gone through. I hope a great place falls into your lap very soon--a place you can make feel like home to you.

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What Robin said, BT.

What are we doing up, Robin?

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I am still kind of on East Coast time after my visit home. You, on the other hand have no excuse, Missy.

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Can I pull a Milli Vanilla, and blame it on the rain?

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