copies mysterious smile

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Wanders over into Beverly and Kristin's corner.

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announces JZ's new tag

Hil's too, speaking of letters

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looks at clock

tries to calculate what time it is for P-C and what time his body likely thinks it is

gets headache from the calculating, crawls across apartment and slithers into bed

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{{{Cass}}}

I wish there was something more I could do for you, something other than tell you that you *WILL* get through this. It will suck, it will hurt, and I have no magic way of fixing that. But you will get through it. All the punctuation, hair-pats, and glitter you want is yours.

P-C!! Yay! I'm glad you're back.

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tries to calculate what time it is for P-C and what time his body likely thinks it is

It's past three in the morning, and my body thinks it's almost three in the afternoon.

Goodnight.

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Sunil is back! Yay!

Not that I've been much better in touch than him...

I should really stop taking this "Let's have a ridiculously social college life for my last two terms" idea so seriously. Really gets in the way of my internet / TV life.

Hmm. Maybe not.

I would like to announce that I have a truly lovely girlfriend now. Who thinks that anything related to internet fandom is utterly insane, but finds my insanity endearing. She is providing even more distractions than college. I may be rather skippy for... a long while.

But I do love you all.

t /drunk posts

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I read that book years ago, and that line has always stuck with me.

My Favorite Messed Up Fiction EVAh111!1... My copy is all marked up. I never ever deface the wonder that is a book (I typed "that is a god" three times. Stupid Jesus trying to make my fingers his minions.) but this one had things I needed to hear, and be able to find again. I have lots of things underlined in there. With some bracketting. I have created a new language for the literate but disturbed.

I'm sorry I wasn't here earlier, but I add my part to the hive-mind's wish for your getting through this, and recovery. Never feel you can't bring us a need to be understood, or listened to.

Thank you. I am trying really hard to do this. And it has been wonderful.

But you will get through it. All the punctuation, hair-pats, and glitter you want is yours.

Can these offers be combined into a soothed, loved and glitterific vision of Cass?

I would like to announce that I have a truly lovely girlfriend now. Who thinks that anything related to internet fandom is utterly insane, but finds my insanity endearing.

Yay Nova!

I tooked an Ambien. I having trouble with words when made into English. Well not the words so much as the sense. Let this be me falling asleep.

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Sunil! so glad to see you back - thank you for being a great secret santa ( see the end of the year thread)

yay for nova!

everyone who needs a lift should go to the end of Natter and read my Nilly dream. - dreams with Nilly are a really good thing.

I hope you are asleep, Cass. and while I'm not sure of the concept of soul mates, I do know that no one knows me better. pretty much I would feel like I chopping out some irregular shaped part of me... I am really glad you came to talk to us.

One of my friends went through a divorce when she discoverd /acknowledged that she was gay. Her husband , was still some one she cared deeply about. her family catholic , didn't speak to her for a year ( they though- at thirty) that this was a phase. Haveing willow on buffy helped her make it. Lucky you - you have hundreds of Buffistas at you side. So , so sorry you are going through this

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P-C, I am glad you are back. We were relatively certain you were far from harm's way, but like someone said upstream, weren't sure of your family's itinerary for the whole, long trip.

Cass, strength to you. I hate the no-way-out-but-through situations and hope your journey through is quicker than it seems like it will be right now, and that when you get to the other end of it, you'll feel renewed. I sent you gmail yesterday, but it was...well, you'll see.

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