P-C!!!!! Hi!!!!

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Blast, my catch up before bed (said bed being delayed to post this) is interrupted in the happiest way by a P-C post.

Now that I know you're safe, Mr. Cow, I shall retire and sleep the rest of the night away.

Glad you're home.

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Yay, P-Cow has returned to us!

I have this theory percolating in my brain on what it can mean to be soul mates, and truly know someone else's soul. It is very dark right now. Which is skewed because I honestly believe that you can have that and have it be a really positive thing. Hell, I think I've even seen it in other people. Rarely, but I have.

One of the Useful Concepts I got from my divorce book was the idea of Negative Intimacy (and also, more applicable in my case, Neutral Intimacy). That deep knowledge of somebody can get flipped pretty quickly during a separation - crazy mirror world where the love becomes contempt and the trust is pain.

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P-C!!!! Hi!! We missed you!!!!

Could I possilby abuse punctuation more than that? I'm not even going to try.

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Sunil!!! Yay! We've missed you very much.

edit: And I'm crashing, so off to bed I go. I'm glad to see you again!

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{{{{{PC}}}}}!!!!!!

Ummm, sorry, those bits on the floor would be the stuffing which has just been hugged out of you. And I don't care if there was a sub-continent between you and the troubles, I kept having uneasy thoughts of "Maybe they decided to visit the shore."

Yay. He's home.

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Hi P-C!

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Welcome back Polter-Cow!!!

I'm tired. And tipsy. And bitter. Goddamn. Why can't I just appreciate the fun I had tonight, and not think about the bitter-making-stuff? Hmph.

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We should discuss, because I've lived your theory.

We should. I would like that. Or loathe it at times, but it would be more than worth it.

I'll have to check out Great Write. I don't really go there.

Totally unbearable at times, Tep. Crawling out of my skin seems divine. And I was okay with the concept (of our divorce) for a while. It is just so palpable now -- with the last of the papers and him moving out of state in a couple of weeks. I am not just losing my husband because I lost him a while ago, but this person who knows me better than anyone and has seen every single facet of me without flinching, and loving me, for the last eight years. I'm not sure how to not be in each other's lives but I can't see how we can be either.

the idea of Negative Intimacy (and also, more applicable in my case, Neutral Intimacy). That deep knowledge of somebody can get flipped pretty quickly during a separation - crazy mirror world where the love becomes contempt and the trust is pain.

'Splain more? Although I think I am just exhausted and my brain shut down. Can I ask you more about this tomorrow? You know, when I have a brain again and you haven't been up since 4. (Yes, it is only me not understanding but I am sharing the wealth spreading the not understandyness.)

and if I then don't feel bad about it, that's OK, right?

More than okay connie... You don't need to feel bad about it at all.

P-C!!!!!!! Missed you! Welcome back!!!

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this person who knows me better than anyone

I suppose it must be like trying to break a habit. You've got to relearn reactions and ways of doing things.

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