Spartacus had sex?
He must have. He was hanging around with thousands of hunky Roman men. I would have.
Gavin, ask yourself this question. What are you more afraid of, a giant murderous demon or me?
Lilah ,'Destiny'
Goodbye and Good Riddance 2004: Well, I Wasn't Expecting That.
Every year we watch the Charlie Brown special, do the Snoopy dance, wish everybody a Merry Christmukkah, and thank our Secret Santas in the good riddance thread. Which is this one, in case you were wondering. Oh, and 2004? Don't think we've forgotten about you.
SailAweigh - Dec 12, 2004 8:41:56 am PST #68 of 962
Nana korobi, ya oki. (Fall down seven times, stand up eight.) ~Yuzuru Hanyu/Japanese proverb
Nutty - Dec 12, 2004 10:22:31 am PST #69 of 962
"Mister Spock is on his fanny, sir. Reports heavy damage."
I was going to say, if you trust Dalton Trumbo's interpretation, then yes, Spartacus definitely had sex.
I don't have wisdom to speak about 2004 yet. It was a year.
Tom Scola - Dec 12, 2004 3:33:15 pm PST #70 of 962
Mr. Scola’s wardrobe by Botany 500
A few years from now—when I take the long view of things—2004 will most likely be seen as a milestone year for me. Some truly spectacular things happened.
The Smay-Zahas wedding was a joyous occasion, easily the most beautiful wedding I ever attended. Hec and JZ are so very in love and so obviously perfect for each other.
A week later was the F2F. That was a year's worth of fun in the span of a few days. If those two events were the only ones I attended all year, I would be content (and exhausted).
I finally got to meet Nilly, who is even more amazing in person than online.
I got to visit Lee's cabin in Maine, along with DX. Again, much fun was to be had, and Lee is a gracious host.
I am grateful for the other Buffista events I got to attend—The billytea farewell at KristinT's and the Lost in the Grooves reading in Chicago.
But...
I'm still going to therapy four times a week. It's clear now that I have a boatload of repressed emotions, relating to an abused childhood, that I need to deal with. The extent to with I blame myself for what happened continues to amaze me. We peel off one layer of self-loathing in therapy, only to find yet another layer of self-loathing. The 2004 elections only served to heighten my sense that my problems are too big for me to handle—I don't have control over them and I can't change them.
Whenever I get too close or too intimate with someone I pull back—sometimes quite abruptly. I spend too many weekends alone and miserable in my apartment. I know that all I have to do is call someone, yet I don't. I moved into my apartment in 2003, yet I still haven't furnished it, over a year later. In short, there are lots of simple things I could do to make myself happier, but I don't.
I need to keep myself in a constant state of unhappiness as a way of repressing my emotions. If I ever decided that I was happy in the present, then I would have to deal with all the things that have happened to me in the past.
At least now, I have a certain amount of awareness as to why I do a lot of the self-destructive things I do. Hopefully, in 2005 I can build on that.
Steph L. - Dec 12, 2004 3:47:49 pm PST #71 of 962
Unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe
Tom, I don't think I have adequate words for this, but -- you are amazing. And brave as hell. And I say that knowing more than a little about trying to deal in the present with family bullshit from the past.
And on top of that, you're just plain nifty.
Hil R. - Dec 12, 2004 4:00:29 pm PST #72 of 962
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l
What Steph said.
deborah grabien - Dec 12, 2004 4:18:05 pm PST #73 of 962
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.
Tom is well beyond nifty, and into complete cool.
libkitty - Dec 12, 2004 9:45:51 pm PST #74 of 962
Embrace the idea that we are the leaders we've been looking for. Grace Lee Boggs
We haven't met, Tom, and I hope I'm not being presumptuous, but {{{Tom}}}.
Beverly - Dec 12, 2004 10:30:34 pm PST #75 of 962
Days shrink and grow cold, sunlight through leaves is my song. Winter is long.
Tom of the blazing smile and the quick info and the spectacular pictures which he shares with us all. You are, as Tep said, amazing. And an invaluable part of this community. I've had the amazing good fortune to meet you in person. But more than that, I've known you as a Buffista for several years. And even in your conversation on the board I can tell you've made enormous strides.
The post you just made? You couldn't have posted that year before last, nor last year either, I don't think. You're incredibly brave, incredibly strong, and I'm very very glad you're here.
Dana - Dec 13, 2004 5:13:04 am PST #76 of 962
"I'm useless alone." // "We're all useless alone. It's a good thing you're not alone."
And on top of that, you're just plain nifty.
Quite nifty. It was lovely to see you in New York, and I'm glad you came.
msbelle - Dec 13, 2004 6:04:03 am PST #77 of 962
I remember the crazy days. 500 posts an hour. Nubmer! Natgbsb
Tom is great and I am lucky enough to get to spend time with him more often than most.
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My 2004 started with a lot of promise, or at least the hope for a lot of promise. It did not live up to expectations which is disappointing, but not the end of the world.
I am hoping for a calm 2005. There will be certain unavoidable life changes, but I do not plan to move and the adoption stuff will be on hold for a while.
I hope you all have healthy and peaceful new years.