'Out Of Gas'
Every year we watch the Charlie Brown special, do the Snoopy dance, wish everybody a Merry Christmukkah, and thank our Secret Santas in the good riddance thread. Which is this one, in case you were wondering. Oh, and 2004? Don't think we've forgotten about you.
Now I just have to figure out how to keep from beating myself up over "wasted" time.
Anne, I spent almost an entire decade wasted in a Denny's back in Michigan. I used to beat myself up for the supposed wasted time until I realized I'd be just as old regardless of how I spent the time, and there are no guarantees I'd be any better off. Time is what it is, yo.
I have almost all of my seekrit santa gift done, except I'm waiting for something to be mailed to me.
I also need to send Xmas cards.
I also need to send Xmas cards.
Yes. This. Also, I have fruitcakes to get in the mail. (Good fruitcakes, not doorstops)
Secret Santee: I may be a little late. My shopping and shipping time got foreshortened considerably. Sorry about that.
Ah, 2004. You were a pretty good year to me, but not a kind one to my friends. I could have done without the politics, the drama, and the life-threatening and cheekbone-fracturing accident. However, the positive outweighed the negative, as proven by this chronological list:
stepped back onstage for the first time
moved in (again) with Z
got good reviews for my second acting venture of the year
got married to Z
reconnected with beloved aunt & uncle
got great reviews for my one directing gig
went to Seattle for Hallowe'en, and hung out with truly cool people
managed to get the cats to emulate some semblance of co-existing peacefully
survived a fall that by all rights should have killed me
still managed to have friends over for Thanksgiving, 2 days after surgery
Not too shabby, I think.
I'm so happy. I finally have all the piece/parts for my seekrit santa prezzie...just have to put together the package and get it to the post office. Hopefully it will be in the mail tomorrow. Yay!!!
Wrapping my sekrit gifts tonight, hope to put them in the mail tomorrow.
BTW, I can be a gift exchange go-between. Need to let your giftee know that RL has kicked you while you're down and their gift will be late? Want to tell your santa there's been a change in your address or holiday schedule? Anything like that? Send me an email & I'll pass it on confidentially.
Well, my secret santa gift has been sent.
In terms of absolute value, I think 2004 was a bad year for me. I had to sell a home I loved, move to a place I hate, and try to rebuild a relationship with my husband after living apart for 15 months. That was hard. Oh, and he's now in Iraq fighting a war neither of us supports (although we do see possibilities for good) and I worry for his safety on a daily basis. Despite the fact that friends and family love me, I frequently feel very lonely.
OTOH, I now hate it here much less than when I moved. It's too rural for my tastes, but it is very pretty here and people are very nice. And, of course, the baby outweighs all the bad. I know having kids doesn't fix your life, but I'm still very excited.
So, 2004 is ending on a positive note. Things are improving and it looks like the trend will continue.
I sent my Secret Santa gift earlier this week.
I'm not saying a thing about my 2004 yet, though. There's still about three weeks to go, and there are whispers in the wind that I want to see play out first. If they go well, I will be partying like no tomorrow on NYE.
My Secret Santa gift shipped today!
My secet santa gift will go out soon. Monday at the latest, I hope.
This year has been uneventful mostly. Mostly it feels neutral. Nothing really bad happened, but nothing really great either. I feel like I'm just biding my time until school is over, and then things can happen. Very much in a holding pattern and kind of champing at the bit for change. But what will happen? Only 2005 know for sure.