alienprayer, that's so fascinating. I consider getting caught lying such a horror that I really don't lie that much. My fear of being caught is tremendous. The idea that it's the draw for some people never even occurred to me.

I am ita on this. Pretty much to the word. alienprayer, thanks for telling us that, though. That took guts, and the wanting-to-get-caught never dawned on me in Penlind's circumstance, but it suddenly makes everything make even more sense.

The Dr. Feldman whose article Rick V. found on Medline a while back has a website devoted to Munchausen's, including a couple of first-person narratives by recovered sufferers. It's fascinating, and frustrating and sad. At least one of them had done herself so much damage during her years of Munchausen that years later, more than a decade after her last medical lie, her health was seriously compromised but she was having a terrible time finding a doctor willing to treat her.

It sounds like you have a better handle on things now, alienprayer. I'm glad -- it sounds like an awful, self-wounding struggle to go through.

I know I was still in extreme-overly-excited newbie phase, then. I'm sort of reading from the hall, because pretty soon, I expect to see myself posting in CAPS because I didn't know how to bold, or spamming the board to vote for James Marsters in some online poll.

Heh. That's so cute. Teenyboppy!Cindy.

ita, i hope i don't have to punch you in the head really hard so you'll know i loves me some ita. but if a shiner will do it, you know where to find me.

You're welcome to (try and) punch me in the head any time you want, Allyson, but you don't need to to demonstrate anything to me.

When I was at my cloudiest, it was during a time of chronic pain -- it managed to cut through the same fog it caused. But that's why pain won't work for me as a clarifier.

It would have been precious Hec, except I was 34. I was probably the internet equiv. though. The Bronze linear was only the second place I'd ever posted on the internet, and my first stop was the Bronze threaded. The old Bronze was a sticky site, the way b.org is (which is more or less only the 4th board where I've posted regularly at all, and the only non-Bronzer one). Reading those boards makes me homesick, even though we were being taken like...a taken thing.

My homesickness for the Bronze is gone. Hm.

My homesickness for the Bronze is gone. Hm.

I thought mine was too. This brought it back though. Darn it.

I am better (mostly), and do not mind at all ita. And thank you Cindy, JZ. I also cut at one point, after I had stopped lying, and stopped because the reward I craved was public.

McGreevy's choice of an Israeli poet for the security position had struck me as an odd one. If New Jersey politics was not so hardball and corrupt at the state level, I would agree with Ariana that it was a passive decision. But in this state, I think he was counting on getting caught.

because the reward I craved was public

Arguably why I got so involved in fandom.

Did you enjoy the act of telling the tales? Did you make up stuff about yourself, or others? If you don't want to talk about it, I understand.