did you catch some of the Geo/Bezoar/Hel Sparrow crap on some of the boards.

HA! That is who, I'm pretty sure, I was playing the violin for. How many freaking names did he end up having in the end?

I had forgotten about the Bronze stopping for a minute of prayer/silence for "Penlind's child".

Twice!

There's a lot of stuff I seem to have forgotten. Like, that I had a rocket launcher. I don't even remember how I acquired it.

agreed. did you catch some of the Geo/Bezoar/Hel Sparrow crap on some of the boards. talk about nutcases. *snerk*

Also Sepiroth. Because tag teaming nutcases are so much more .... unpleasant. I even saw a post or two from the "I HAET this ShoW Bcuz Willo is a Lezbo" folks. And really, that was SO over by the sping of 2001. You think they would have at least learned to spell by then.

There's a lot of stuff I seem to have forgotten. Like, that I had a rocket launcher. I don't even remember how I acquired it.

Well, knowing, you, violence was likely involved.

HA! That is who, I'm pretty sure, I was playing the violin for.

I hope it was the world's tiniest violin.

How many freaking names did he end up having in the end?

HA! umm...can we count that high? i honestly don't know. the ones i can remember off the top of my head are: Geo/Bezoar/HelSpider/HelSparrow/SparrowtheHellSpider/Karmic.

Also Sepiroth. Because tag teaming nutcases are so much more .... unpleasant.

what was priceless was reading Sephiroth telling Geo what was appropriate behaviour! hahahahahaha!!

There's a lot of stuff I seem to have forgotten. Like, that I had a rocket launcher. I don't even remember how I acquired it.

Well, knowing, you, violence was likely involved.

as if she with the shovel has any room to talk.

'stina had a shotgun. She's from Texas.

All i had was a foul mouth.

as if she with the shovel has any room to talk.

You know, you threaten boards full of posters, bean a few bezoars and bury the bodies, and suddenly you get a reputation for violence ....

I love my old school dead gay bitch cabal.

If I had discovered message boards before 1998, I would have been a Penlind. I don't know how obvious what I am about to say is, but the driving need behind (at least my own) elaborate lie facade was less sympathy and more masochism.

Each time I got caught, I was flooded with hypocritical rage and shame, and as I was/am suffering from depression, those moments were the only times I felt strong emotion. I would still defend myself, often beyond conclusive demonstrations of proof.

Sympathy given while the lies held up was often nice, a little comforting, but what I wanted was to be caught.

alienprayer, that's so fascinating. I consider getting caught lying such a horror that I really don't lie that much. My fear of being caught is tremendous. The idea that it's the draw for some people never even occurred to me.

Really fascinating.

And horrible.

The idea that it's the draw for some people never even occurred to me.

Adrianna Huffington made the comment that subconsciously Gov. McGreevy of NJ wanted to be out of the closet so much that he took really stupid risks (by putting his alleged lover on the state payroll in a high-profile position) in order to get caught.

I kinda get that, Narrator. Because McGreevey being caught is a means to an end that I can understand (though there are more straightforward routes to the goal).

However, I'm translating (pardon the presumptiveness, alienprayer, because this is real to you, and just theoretical to me, and I think it's marvellous that you can talk about it so openly, and hope that means you're much better) this to cutting, and oh! I get it. Not that I have cut, but the clarity of an intense yet unpleasant sensation ... yeah, if you can't get it healthily, suddenly it makes more sense.

When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive