It was *mine.* It was something that I liked that I was absolutely *sure* was *my* enjoyment, not my need to do the same thing as other people to keep them happy. Mine mine mine.
I know the feeling you're talking about. When you don't have to second-guess yourself and wonder whether your feelings stem from some subconscious ulterior motives.
As Angel said, "Sometimes, I miss that clarity."
Very sad that I joined this party so late.
Joins KristenT in that corner. Brings pitcher of Mudslides.
Oo Mudslides!
looks around furtively, hoping students in hallway don't notice
Through the wonders of psychotherapy, one of the things I'm exploring and trying to change is how much I need to keep people happy. And wanting to keep people happy made me decide to like things, to do things, to want things *just because* someone else did. I wanted to be in line with other people to keep them happy. (For instance, the Freak-Ass Church, and the things I was willing to believe and do for them.)
Huh. Y'know, this is my current project in therapy. I'd never really thought about it in connection with the FAC. Despite noting while down the coast that my Christian beliefs themselves had played into that attitude.
looks around furtively, hoping students in hallway don't notice
Yeah, kids keep walking by my desk too. I've challked the day up to a loss as it is.
Y'know, this is my current project in therapy. I'd never really thought about it in connection with the FAC.
I liked bullshit bad music because of them, I changed my opinions for them -- deeply-held opinions, ones I'd had for a long, long, long time -- I got intensely critical of other peoples' choices because the FAC was, even though those choices were ones I had never had a problem with previously.
I stopped writing. I stopped reading, except FAC-approved Christian books, and the bible, of course.
It probably sounds really really lame, but finding a damn TV show that I liked just because I liked it -- was a really liberating moment.
It's not lame, Steph. In one way or another, Joss's fictional universe has touched us all very deeply. Buffy and Angel remain my favorite television shows/works of fiction ever, and given how obsessive I was about some shows beforehand (Friends, etc.) that's not ever likely to change. It also brought me into contact with two wonderful groups of friends through the internet fandoms, and that's something I'll always be grateful for.
Well, just to be clear, I have been a Buffyverse fanatic since Season 3 Buffy
It's not so much about what you like (though it boggles my mind that people might be here that don't care for vampyres and the women that slay them). It's just about what got you here.
Who knows? In three years, should we still exist (knock wood), someone might be here because they're interested in the implementations of preferential voting in web communities.
In three years, should we still exist (knock wood), someone might be here because they're interested in the implementations of preferential voting in web communities.
Yes. He will Google "bullshit consensus" on a whim, and voila!