I'm not saying whether you should stay at your job--everybody has to make that call, but especially with stuff you're not loving, thinking about all the years you might have to do it is way too much.It feels like making a plan, but planning is satisfying, not like torturing yourself. Generally, at times like that, I pull out what I think of as The Omar Answer, so called from when the Wire's favorite homo-thug testified in court and they asked "How do you survive when you steal from drug dealers?" Omar says "A day at a time, I suppose." And, really, citizen or criminal, that's really all we know we have...do it ninety times and you're at spring break already, though. (Sometimes things are bad enough to go hour-by-hour, but I didn't read that, so far--I could be wrong. But you can do almost anything for an hour.)

2025 has been a really difficult one in ways I don't really want to talk about. There's a lot that's going really well on the surface but mentally/emotionally this has been one of the hardest years of my life and I'm not enjoying any of it.

I'm so sorry, Jess. I hope 2026 gets better

Hugs, Jessica.

Sometimes it's, well, I won't say "easier" to have a crisis, because it's a crisis, but things are well-defined and maybe you have an ask for if people want to circle the wagons and stuff. I think I know how that feels, Jess. Even if we're not having the same one.

Well, all the everything has not been ideal. The direction the US officially went this year is disgusting. While I’ve always seen the US as having good and bad aspects before, I’ve never been as ashamed of our leaders and the people who support them as I am today.

Personally, the big negative was losing my job. Which was entirely due to the actions of the federal government. Which is not exactly helping with the first bit. On the plus side, I got into gardening in a big way, contributing loads of fresh veg to the local food bank. I’ve gotten to know my sister and the other MI family members a lot better, which has been delightful. I’ve loved exploring the area, especially the local parks. Javier, the cat i inherited from amyth, has become cuddlier and even slightly social. I’ve made some good acquaintances who might become friends. And I’ve read a lot of good books.

I was reminded that not all New Year’s resolutions need to be punitive. So I’m thinking of setting a resolution to read one new (to me) poem a week this year. There are so many poets whose work I’m unfamiliar with, especially Americans and anyone after Edna St. Vincent Millay. I’d like to change that, and I’ll probably be asking for recs in the reading thread.

There are so many poets whose work I’m unfamiliar with, especially Americans and anyone after Edna St. Vincent Millay. I’d like to change that, and I’ll probably be asking for recs in the reading thread.

I will recommend Marianne Moore and Elizabeth Bishop.

Background on Marianne and links to her poetry: [link]

Background on Elizabeth and links to her poetry: [link]

Poetry Foundation website is an incredible resource for this kind of pursuit.

So, Tim's cancer kind of overshadowed everything else in 2025. I'm not ignoring that his prognosis was very good and his care team was top notch — I'm super grateful for both of those things — but it was still fucking cancer. Even though I'm trying not to, I'm holding my breath (existentially speaking) until the PET scan at the end of January. We have every reason to believe it'll be clean, but waiting for confirmation sucks, and my brain can go down some very bad rabbit holes. Definitely praying that 2026 will be the year of no cancer.

Alas, PT for my hip pain helped somewhat, but not enough. So I have an MRI on Monday, and hopefully it will show something easily repairable. (If it's what the symptoms are pointing to — a torn labrum — that should be able to be fixed with outpatient arthroscopic surgery.) Because I'd really like 2026 to also be the year of being able to walk more than 3 steps without pain.

I'd also like 2026 to be the year of Not Worrying About Our Health.

I'd also like 2026 to be the year of Not Worrying About Our Health.

I'm all for that

Thanks, David!

I'd also like 2026 to be the year of Not Worrying About Our Health.

Excellent goals!