I am essentially dragging myself kicking and screaming out of the house before I transform entirely into a creepy shut-in.

I think my transformation is already complete. I do have to come to the office 3 days a week, but actual socialization with people I don't live or work with? Yeah, I don't do that. (Proximity matters, and our best friends are all 45 minutes away at minimum.)

I really want to get back to pen and paper journaling. There are a few of my co workers I'd like to hang out with outside of work. But I haven't tried really hard yet. One of them is around my age. But there is also a coworker that can be a lot so no one wants to hang out with her much outside of work but they also don't want to hurt her feelings.

I'm in insurance/Dr hell loop right now. But it should be resolved as soon as I can call the Drs office.

I've been trying not to spend too much time obsessing about the news unless it was trying to find something I can do to help things get better, but the newest thing (DeWine signing SB1) is affecting my actual job, so there's really no way to avoid it.

Elise Stefanik is the rep for the Otter Lake district. Her campaign signs have her staring adoringly at her favorite president. It delights me that they are too afraid of losing the seat to let her have the promised UN appointment. Yes, Elise, your loyalty will indeed go unrewarded. I doubt that the seat was really at risk, but apparently someone else is owed more than Elise.

I’m sorry, Hil

I think my transformation is already complete.

Yeah, it’s an uphill battle to convince myself to try to reverse the process at this point. I do feel like I should, but it’s gonna take so much effort

The Table Rock Fire has grown to 10,000 acres and we won't have rain until Sunday.i think it's 0% contained

I finally got the issue with my CT scan fixed. It took about 7 phone calls...I didn't make them all...I got a call from my doctor's office, the imaging place and BCBS. But Monday I will have the CT scan and I'm sure it will show everything is fine.

E is coming for a very brief visit and unfortunately I will only get to see him the day he gets here. It's the 15th, the day after my HIDA scan . I can't ask for any other days off because other people have.

And I was going to plan our trip to FL for the end of April but ...I think I'm going to wait and plan it until I know what is going on and if I'll need more tests or have answers. I don't want to plan something and then have to push it off. I'm working off the assumption that the HIDA scan will show everything is fine and I'll need to do more testing.... because I don't want to be optimistic that I'll get answers and then be disappointed. I'm disappointed enough every day I wake up and remember oh hey...our country is being run by fascists who are also stupid.

Ugh I’m sorry, askye, that’s too much

Timelies all!

Stressed about life in general, and the RIFs affecting my workplace. As a lab tech I should hopefully be spared, but one can never tell with this administration...

On the good side, Barada is letting me skritch her a bit. It's been almost two months since we brought her and her sister home, so progress is being made slowly.

I hope the CT scan finds something easily actionable, askye.

While family is lovely, the “besties upstairs and across the parking lot” situation was great for casual socializing. I’m making an effort with book group, church, and eventually the community garden, but there’s nothing like stepping out for your mail and getting caught up in a half hour gossip fest.

Still, it’s a warm, rainy spring day, and Javier is in a lap mood, so the present moment is pretty good.

Well in it never rains it pours .... something has happened to Cheeto's back legs. He was fine at 4 am when I got up to go to the bathroom and he and Scrappy wanted out. I saw him laying down when I was going out the door at 8:40.

So sometimes between that he got injured. So we are calling the vet tomorrow. I'll have to get that in before the CT scan