David, I hope the warm and comfort of seeing old friends helps balance the sorrow.
Yes, it was great seeing old friends. The ceremony was beautifully done, and really honored who he was as a person. Which is to say a lot of the stories were hilarious.
It hit me hard in ways I hadn't expected, though. Definitely was taking me back to some of the raw grief at JZ's funeral. We'll do one more, less formal, get together tomorrow.
A lot to process.
I’m in Wisconsin with my niece’s family. They’re lovely. My great niece and nephew are 5 and 3 respectively, and they have so much energy.
I have been in a deep, deep funk for so long, but I am happy to say that I’ve been having a GOOD WEEKEND. I took Friday off, (and also tomorrow), I somehow found my motivation, and now my apartment is the cleanest it’s been in well over six months. And I got myself out early today, and shot two rolls of film, and I had enough time in the afternoon to go and see Black Bag (which is Soderbergh at his Soderberghest).
And when I wasn’t cleaning or out and about, I was able sit and read comics and listen to WFMU, and not feel any anxiety.
Tomorrow, I’m buying new AC window units for my apartment
Tom, that sounds like an excellent weekend!
I deleted a post because I don't think it was coherent.
I had another episode where I got really close to fainting. I was working earlier in the day and triggered the dizziness and I went to sit down and instead of feeling better it all went to hell. I didn't faint. I knew I wasn't feeling great but I had about 4 people stop me and ask if I was ok/say I did not look good. And I was trying to keep working and hoping it would get better.
It did not . I ended up getting some juice in case it was my blood sugar (minimal help). Instated crying for no reason... The asset protection person finally told me I should go home. I'm worried about points but she said she'd talk to a few of the managers.
I took notes. I'm going to send my Dr a message with it pasted in there...this was part of what I wrote when I was feeling the worst ..my hands felt weak and clumsy and trying to fix things with autocorrect seemed too hard.
Oh and when I went up to Mom's last Mon I noticed how all the trees that were taken down during Helene were dry and it was like kindling . And Friday some teenagers were out at Table Rock and doing something with fire and now 300 acres of burned. Not on the way I take up to Mom's but if you go straight past the turn up the mountain. They are having difficulty fighting the fire because of the steep andscape.
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