I’m so sorry, Calli.

Oh, Calli, love, I'm so sorry.

Calli I'm so sorry.

My Thanksgiving could have been a lot better. M wanted to just stay at home and eat Lil Smokies cooked in bbq sauce. I wish we had done that but since I had decided not to go to Mom's (thinking he would want to go to his brother's) I was like "we should go to your brother's". And following his Mom's suggestion we got there way to early. And I was starving. The food was only ok. The desserts looked like they would be great but I made them to go in a container and later it got tossed out by his Mom "I thought it was trash!" So that was even worse.

I was just melancholy and grumpy all day.

Plus I've been having really really weird dreams and one the other day was a really long epic dream about me cheating on M in a truly out there way with someone who was just ...ick. The whole thing left me feeling just awful. Except it wasn't really M in the dream, I mean it was but a totally different person in the way dreams are.

I also feel like I'm in some kind of hibernation mode--all I want to do is curl up where it's cozy and sleep or nibble on things and not do much. It's dark when I get home and my brain is like ---time to go to bed! and then on my days off I'm like "it's very cozy ...on Penny is lying next to me I shouldn't disturb her"

Thank you, y’all.

I’m so sorry, Calli

My friend brought me to this dance party but it’s all strangers (and a lot of straight dudes) and I don’t really want to dance this kind of dance with them (it’s “fusion”, so involves a lot of awkward close hold). But it’s at someone’s house, so there’s not a lot of places to be and just watch and not be hella awkward, so I’m out on the porch pretending to type some very important text or something. Yep yep yep. Hello all.

{fake texts back to meara to maintain the illusion}

The pumpkin pie is almost gone, but I made a new tray of stuffing because it's the most versatile leftover.

Cousin Nicole is visiting us from Sacramento so Matilda has been forced to move back to her own bedroom. She's been living down in the Garden Apartment since she got mono in early October but I'm going to make her hang out with me during the holidays and the run up to Japan.

We're going to try to muster a group outing to see Wicked on Monday.

Sounds fun!

I am making a lemon ice box pie today, because my mom used to make them for most family gathering type holidays; we didn't have one at Thanksgiving this year, and I missed it and feel like we neglected the remembrance of Ruby. Plus, it's forking delicious.

I went and got a cheap little electric citrus juicer at H-Mart this morning (manual lemon juicing had been the most annoying part of the pie process, historically) -- what a revelation! Four lemons in less than a minute. Amazing.

Yikes, meara. Use us anytime to type away. I hope you were able to have some fun.