I hope the pain is something you can mitigate, smonster.
Shir was here all day while I tried to finish off my last responsibilities for the Memorial.
I was doing SO well getting the pictures printed up in collage posters and some full size shots on poster board and then...Walgreen called me back to say that my $150 order could not be completed because they ran out of paper. When will they get more paper? Saturday.
I can pivot to doing the single image posters at FedEx and
try
to finish the collage posters at another Walgreens, but I was like a half hour from having it all done and now it's several other hours and more difficult pickups.
Sylvie and Juliana have been absolute champs assisting me (you'll be unsurprised to find they're super competent and capable). But we found out today that the easels we wanted to rent for the event to hold up the pictures were...wildly expensive, not going to be delivered and hugely inconvenient.
There are backup plans, but my hopes to throw money at the problem and not have to deal with it are quashed.
It was fun having Shir to assist and show her around the neighborhood, and she helped me stay on task.
After I sent her back home I tried to pull together the music playlist and guess what? The music I was choosing began to affect my feelings.
It's
almost
as if music were designed to evoke emotional responses.
There was a moment of tears running down my face and a whole separate moment of sobbing. Because those particular songs are about very specific places with Jacqueline.
I'm looking forward to seeing so many beloved faces in the next few days.
Aww David. Yes music is tough. And I sorry so many stupid logistical things are being dumb too. Yay Sylvie and Juliana.
I leave in the morning (staying with a friend for a few days before) and am quite certain I will get to town and realize I only packed half of what I need somehow. But I am packed.
I'm looking forward to seeing so many beloved faces in the next few days.
David, you will get my biggest hug.
am quite certain I will get to town and realize I only packed half of what I need somehow. But I am packed.
I keep second-guessing myself on my obsessive packing list. Self, it is just a weekend! You will be clean and dressed. It's fine!
Packing cubes are wonderful and awful, as they allow you to overpack.
Packing cubes are wonderful and awful, as they allow you to overpack.
I did, in fact, buy compression packing cubes specifically for this trip, because I am by god only bringing a carry-on.
Today we are holding David in our hearts even more than usual as the calendar and our memories mark his and Jacqueline's anniversary. Sending all my love.
We are wandering the Tahoe area today and will be back in SF later.
Today we are holding David in our hearts even more than usual as the calendar and our memories mark his and Jacqueline's anniversary. Sending all my love.
It is the 20th anniversary of our wedding day. I remember it all so vividly. It doesn't seem so distant in time.
I'm looking forward to seeing so many beloved faces in the next few days.
Best wishes, it sounds like a very melancholy time.
Best wishes, it sounds like a very melancholy time.
Bittersweet for sure. But still plenty of sweet.
Going through this process pulls me back into the intimacy of our relationship, which is good. But it makes the wound feel fresh too.
I am so sorry that I can't be there with you all in SF this weekend. David, I hope the memorial is everything you want and need it to be. I wish I could give you some big hugs in person.
