The good news is we have made it to the end of 2020 and so far I'm still standing. I was able to find a way to keep every single one of my employees. I'm still paying healthcare for all of my employees. With the next round of PPP coming I think we will have a runway to still be here when things start to come back, and the optimist in me is pretty convinced once people can gather again the floodgates are going to start to open on work.
Watching you navigate this with the priority of taking care of your employees and your business with a will to survive has given me much hope. I know it hasn't been easy but you & K have been amazing to watch. I admire you a lot.
We also have been bird watching A LOT more. Expanded our bird houses and feeders. It's given DH no small amount of joy.
This year has been hard. I'm reluctant to say the hardest because there have been a few other huge events that have been hard in different years, but as far as just sustained pushing to make it through the year, this one takes the cake.
Thank you for the kind words. I try to always take to heart that I have my business because of the people who work for me. It helps me to focus when the hard decisions come.
Oh, my Buffistas. I hesitate to use the word "challenging" as that's Corporate shine to polish shit.
But we have been sore challenged this year. Or let us use Ahab's phrase to describe the whale: "He tasks me." We have been tasked.
I am so deeply impressed by all the teachers who have had to negotiate this strange landscape of a year. I know it is exhausting.
And such deep respect for everybody who worked so hard (often well out of their comfort zones) on this election.
ND, I too have deep admiration for your ethical commitment to your staff as you worked through the worst possible economic circumstances for your industry.
I'm so sad about DXM.
I'm sad but also happy that we have made time to love on Amyth. I wish we'd had that time with ita, DXM and Ginger and Connie and BJ and Ouise and Frankenbuddha. To tell them that they were loved, and central to our community.
Our family has had a bad year. JZ lost her father to Covid. We had a quarantine at the beginning of the lockdown, and were dependent on friends (like, Deb, and Juliana and Martin) to stay fed.
Matilda lost so much this year. Her grandfather. Her hopes for high school. Her friends. Separated from her brother.
And we have moved through Jacqueline's grief and Matilda's depression and loss, setbacks and obstacles, each of us deprived of the sustaining graces we depend upon. Time alone. Outward focus. Friendships.
We are poised on a new year. I am ready to release grief, and stress and tension and move into it.
I am ready for a new day.
That is beautiful David. I too am ready for a new day.
I... can't even begin to sum up the past year, except to note both that it has left me a wreck and that I'm still acutely, shamefully aware of my privilege. How many people do I know (including my David) who had lost one parent or both long before now? And also to note that this community has been a lifeline during many, many terrible months, and I'm infinitely grateful. With how terrible I still am about posting and staying current I don't deserve it, but I feel it, and it's kept me from flying into pieces.
And Matilda, my Matilda, has felt it all so much more crushingly than I have and has had to deal with all my losses and more, and David has picked up so much emotional slack and kept us both so much more anchored and steady than either of us was capable of on our own.
I started to make a post a couple weeks ago, and then I just got bogged down. And then I realized that I didn't need to list things. (I've read all of your lovely and gracious posts, is how I figured that out.)
I am so happy to see this year over and have some light for humanity with vaccines to address the pandemic and a new U.S. new administration to address... everything we've fucked up in four scant years plus, start to address, I'm hoping, centuries upon centuries of dedicated, targeted harm. Neither is a cure for all of the world's ills, but both are better.
I very personally had more good this year than last. My medical woes that started in March 2019 seem generally resolved, and I'm still here. Neither of those were necessarily sure bets every day for a long while, but March/April of 2020 was the start of the real road to recovery, and it's been steady. Obviously, the dreams of many fun and exciting dinners and adventures with friends and family didn't materialize, but imagining them got me through a lot in the hospital, so, when they finally happen, it'll be that much sweeter, I suspect.
My DP has a new job that he loves with a bunch of smart people that he enjoys working with. It had been a long haul of unemployment coupled with caring for me when I was home off-and-on (which had many components), so to see him happily career-productive again is a joy. And it has allowed me the latitude to get to a place where my brain and body are functioning well enough to seriously handle working again. I mean, now I have to find a job, so there's that, but all in all, I feel good and ready to enter the world again when it opens up. I'm grateful for both the time and the end result.
It has been a joy to "come back" to the b.org, so that's definitely a huge positive for me and 2020. I am continually amazed by you all -- what and how you go through life's ups, downs, and "Seriously, universe, WTF?"s, what you bring to others, your sense of humor, your passions, your willingness to share the good, the bad, and the real, the support you provide to this community and to your own "world." This is a good place, yes.
So, bring on 2021 and what it holds.
