And I should have said this first: THANK YOU, everyone, for your support. Y'all are the goddamn BEST.

I'm so glad to hear the panic has subsided to merely pissed off, frightened, and sad.

I want to sort this out, get Dad's guns safely out of there, and then I want to never, ever speak to him again.

Go ahead and feel that way! Its not a blood-oath and its not an entirely terrible idea. Go ahead and feel that way and let your brain sort through it as it will.

You're processing this. You're moving through this. You're doing a good job. Hang in there.

Kind of glad to hear you are angry, Tep, that sounds like an appropriate response (panic was also an appropriate response, if you are not sure about that)

Teppy, your bro doesn't give a flying fig about how clean your house is, so long as he has a place to crash -- he, too, is full of worry, emotion and brain weasels about this whole situation. He, like you, isn't thinking about dust bunnies (elephants in my case).

I keep looking at Other Real Estate in Wooded or Ocean or Moutain places. Because my job really stinks at the moment.

I have ordered a mountain of Pad Thai with tofu *and* sushi. Well, okay, only 2 pieces of salmon nigiri. So less of a mountain and more of an...appetizer? But fuck if I was cooking.

Glad the panic has eased some, Steph. You and your bro are good people. I... don't actually have a follow up for that. It just is a true statement.

Yay food!

But fuck if I was cooking.

Yet another valid response! You are full of them today!

And pad thai with tofu sounds awesome...maybe I'll adjust my dinner plans.

I hope the food is good and the anxiety eases up.

I am so so so glad that my brother and I were 100% on the same page with my dad about his guns. We do not want them and you either deal with them before you leave Texas or we will have them all destroyed. The two male Texas cousins have them all, I think. Dad could have/should have sold some of them to dealers and made some good $$, but he is sentimental and wanted to tell the stories about them all.

In non-gun news, I ordered delivery of wings last night and got someone else's order, but I did not even hear the delivery come (I was actually eating something else for dinner) and so it sat on my porch for an hour. so ugh - wrong food for today's lunch, but I damn sure still ate it.

In other other news - I decided to cancel my trip in October to the music festival in Austin. last year they cancelled ver very late and our tickets rolled over. I've gone since 2015, I think. Just seems too risky with Austin at Stage 5. My cousin that we stay with had open heart surgery in July and was planning on the festival being his big recovery celebration, but it is too risky for him now.