Yeah, Hec, even I, who envy every one and wish I were doing something else, like, always, Can't quite get it up for "damn, I wish I had a root and a partner whose painful absence, way too soon, tears my heart up." Although I do think you're lucky that you found your one--kind of thinking that I won't, but that doesn't make me feel good that the Universe said "Psych!" in such a horrifying way. I don't blame you for having pangs about it. Even if I do have to invite people to stuff I'd(Almost) rather hide out than go to myself. Which makes me feel guilty and it's a whole thing. Sigh.

Gud that doesn’t seem like an equal share. Maybe consider your daughter’s words from recently, about how she sees your relationship with your wife?

Gud, I'm hoping that one day you'll be able to recognize what a wonderful and caring person you are and allow yourself the rest, love, and free time that you deserve. Right now your home sounds more like a prison of neverending chores than a home. It shouldn't be like this, and you deserve better. Nobody has to work 24/7 on their homes.

Yes to both of these comments.

What Teppy said. "Damn it, I can now afford to do wonderful things for my family, but my wife died before we could do the travelling we'd dreamed about and could also finally afford." is not at all diamond shoes. Unless we're talking about sharp, pointy diamonds inside your shoes that poke you every time you take a step.

Thanks for tagging me, David. That Nouveau post was lovely (also, there was a mysterious itch behind one ear that needed scratching this morning) and I'm glad I didn't miss it.

I've been thinking about it and it's almost like a monkey's paw wish.

I was thinking more an O. Henry story, but same ballpark. Rest assured, "beloved wife passed away too soon to enjoy comfortable retirement" does not fall under the heading of trivial First World problems that someone shouldn't be bothered by.

Gud, it's good to see your pixels; I've missed you.

Timelies all!

I realize it's been over a week since I last posted. There's been a lot. Mr. S was discharged from the hospital on Thursday. He went to school Friday, then we flew to Toronto for FilKOntario. Most of the weekend went well. He was fine during the flight up and during the con. He had a meltdown as we were starting to descend into National Airport. He refused to put his seatbelt on and sit in his seat. Yesterday was an asynchronous work day for school, then we went to my MIL's for the seder. After we had eaten, he got restless and fussy, so we didn't get to the back half of the seder. Then he had a meltdown at school today. Sigh...

So I've been avoiding some of my tasks with getting the Memorial together, mainly emailing the contacts for catering, drinks, AV etc.

Today I buckled down and fired off those emails, and you know what? Those bastards replied and now I have to do follow up emails and phone calls!

It's not like crossing something off your to-do list at all! It just opens up a can of worms, this communication shit.

Matilda had a rough day, and was texting me from school. What can you say to "I miss mamma"?

Fortunately it was therapy day, then she was getting her hair trimmed and she loves her stylist. Then she texted Hannah that she was in sore need of a "mom-hug" so she'll be collecting that on the way home from her haircut.

Car at the shop and having my first wfh day in a long time, just happens to coincide with Mac’s first real day of work at his new job.

I’m gonna be very lazy about work today and that’s ok.

What’s his new job, msbelle?

Yay new job for Mac?

Y’all I am contemplating cutting my hair. Which is fine but knowing myself I’m a little worried I will one afternoon suddenly decide I must NOW immediately cut my own hair into bangs or something. Which probably does not have a good outcome. But so tempting!!