All I can do is love her. But it's just hard and it's just sad, and that's where she is.

You are doing it all right. So many hugs for both of you.

That sounds like a good comfort scenario, to the extent that anything can be.

Sorry about the iPod, Atropa. I wish Right to Repair was more of a thing.

My 80GB iPod lives in my car. Once it dies, I will disentangle my music from iTunes.

We've been alternating grey, overcast days with bright, blue sky days and the roulette wheel of weather has landed on grey again.

Therapy day for Matilda so I'm hoping that helps.

We talked some last night about how to organize her gap year. Still pretty amorphous, and we're not entirely aligned yet, but some understanding of the terrain at least.

Some days are just harder, I imagine. Even if you've been going along for a while. I just ate Samoas, too. Samoa solidarity.

Mr. Loomycakes unearthed my OLD old original 40GB iPod, so tonight I'll connect it to my old laptop that has my iTunes library and transfer over the most important music and playlists. A stopgap solution, because I don't know how long that one will survive, either.

I am taking care of bureaucratic tasks that turn out to be not that onerous. I now have a parking pass on its way to me, a street performer permit in my bag, and good results on my cholesterol test this morning. So there. Edit: AND my A1C is OK. Not amazing, but OK.

While waiting for various other shoes to drop later this week at work, I finally found the gumption to assemble my new lawnmower today (not that it required too much assembly, which was a happy discovery). Now all I need is to buy some safety goggles and charge up the battery on a sunny day once the grass has grown long enough to mow.

When is it time to stop with #ShePersisted?Because I've been slogging hard sending out short stories and haven't been published for two years(and that was on a friendly market) I've dusted myself off a bunch, taken craft classes(But probably will never be in a position to be an MFA candidate...if I wanted to go forward, I'm not even really sure what that is.)

I hope therapy is helpful for Matilda. I had a crafting day with Crafty Friend and it was great . I'm off next Tues so we are doing it again... we haven't been able to get together since October.

Scrappy the cat has been missing. Or bad been. He was injured prior to going missing and he finally showed up in the outside laundry room tonight. Or maybe he's been hiding in there ? I don't know. What I do know was that he was bleeding and it looked so bad. M was sure he'd been shot. We bundled him up and drove to the Vet ER.

He has a really bad abscess. Needs stitches probably. And it is near his butt so it looked like he may be been rectally bleeding. (He wasn't but we couldn't tell). I honestly thought we would get to the vet and he would have bled to death . Or near to it

I will say as stressful as living with M's Mom is it means I don't have to spend a lot of money day to day so a surprise $700 ish vet bill makes a dent but it's not going to make me broke. I don't know if they need all the money right now we are still waiting for him to be done.

I also got the low down from Crafty Friend on how the Creative resource center is doing and her job. Their donations and sales have tripled so that is good. But there is a lot of disorganization on how things are being run because of the huge growth. It also sounds like they are trying to give all the employees a voice in how things are run . And I was listening to her and just kept being baffled at how the whole system isn't falling apart. I don't think the people who are in cha ge have retail management experience and they need someone preferable who has worked on thrift but of not at least someone who has run a store.