grief is exhausting and nonsensical.

Oof, it really is.

Speaking of, Shir, I’d love to see you again if you feel like coming back to New Orleans. Or to wherever I am at that time.

I'm afraid New Orleans is off the menu for this trip (but oh how I loved it there! I still remember dancing in the street with you), but I'd absolutely love to see you again.

Also, people: I'm bad at geography of places I don't know. Which means that I only learned today that a day trip from NY to DC is an option, but from SF to LA I will need a flight. This is to say: if you're close-ish to NY, Seattle or SF, please tell me about it! I'd love to commute and see you f2f and have very little idea what is and isn't possible.

Thank you for sharing about the protests

Oh wow, we're angry. Six protests today alone in the city. Only one pro government. We're really, really angry. And heartbroken. The translator here took some literature freedom, but the subtext is pretty accurate. I listened to this on repeate for about a month. It was originally out in November. The names are of the coalition members, and they're filming inside a bomb shelter. [link] And in addition, the government apparently now hatessss graffiti of the numbers 1400 and 136 (the first is the estimated number of dead on Oct. 7th. Later we learned it was around 1290 and the other bodies were of Hamas, but it took a lot of time to identify those who could be identified so 1400 sticked. The latter is the number of hostages and prisoners of war in Gaza). Activists keep spraying these numbers in various places.

there is a nonzero change I will be on a mandatory business trip to China while you are in the US, and if that happens I will be so MONUMENTALLY pissed at the entire universe.

WAIT, I CAN FIX THE UNIVERSE!

That is to say I didn't book the tickets yet. When is that business trip?

Edited: context and hopefully clarity.

Hahaha fix the universe Shir! Get on that!

I am all about writing things down but I do fully anticipate the “move from right monitor and left monitor and immediately forget why” in my near future if I haven’t already. One of the reasons I keep a weekly agenda in a notebook isn’t just to make it pretty but to write out what my week looks like and drill it into my brain, and think about how my week is set up and what else I need to schedule or when I can do things etc.

Back from the clinic. They did go ahead and to the biopsy, but the impression I got was that the doctor thinks it's likely based on the location that it's some sort of scar tissue/blood pocket/etc. related to my surgery.

They were also able to pause my MyChart notifications for a week after I mentioned I was going to try to set up a filter for my inbox, and they said they check their inbox several times a day so they can call people with results. So at some point in the next 3-5 business days I should know for sure.

OMG the time spent wondering"why am I looking at my phone?"/"why did I open Google"/"did I mean to open a new tab?" is very high

Sounds pretty good for now, Susan. Continuing boob~ma

Lots and lots of ~ma, Susan.

yeah, Susan, ma for your breasts...

I just did it when I looked up from my right-hand monitor and switched to my left-hand monitor. I pulled up the internet browser but couldn't remember what I was going to do. Not even ten seconds later!

I'll send someone a link in chat and then 10 seconds later not be able to remember what it was.

That is to say I didn't book the tickets yet. When is that business trip?

OK I reread your Google doc, and actually my possible trip is the week after you're planning to leave NYC so we should be fine. Whew!

Much boob ~ma for Susan!

I have been reading a lot lately on how high-masking smart neurodivergent women just FALL THE FUCK APART during perimenopause because all of the coping mechanisms we've been using since puberty were built on a foundation of mostly reliable hormone levels, which, as it turns out, were pretty important for day-to-day functioning.

Yep, I am falling the fuck apart! And I still am remembering more than my coworkers, but I need them to take up my slack! But of course I shouldn’t so I shouldn’t be angry!