msbelle I hope something good for you happens with your boss.

Hec, I'm so sorry you have to deal with your MIL and all of this.

My aunt's memorial service is in a few weeks I've been telling Mom I want to be there to support her and she's been kind of saying reasons why I shouldn't go (travel time, new job, etc) and I finally heard some things she wasn't actually saying -that the best way to be supportive of her is to not go. Not because she wants to keep me from it but she just wants it all over and she doesn't need support doing this. And I was really going just for Mom so now I'm not.

Also I discovered that Belk never terminated my employment even though I signed all the paperwork I needed. I had emailed the lawyer a couple of weeks ago saying I didn't think they had but she assured me I had done everything I needed to. But I called HR to find out why I hadn't gotten any paper work about COBRA. ...because I'm still employed by them. And the corporate HR told me to call the store. So I need to do that tomorrow. I'm a little worried there will be issues of some kind but I did everything I was supposed to.

Also I discovered that Belk never terminated my employment even though I signed all the paperwork I needed.

I hope that means you're still getting paychecks! Oh, probably not because not clocking in, but...

Better than terminating your employment earlier than they should have, I guess?

I went to a friend’s last night and drank hot cider and watched “Over the Garden Wall” which I guess is old but I’d never heard of it, but it was very cute and fall-feeling. Good times.

I went to a friend’s last night and drank hot cider and watched “Over the Garden Wall” which I guess is old but I’d never heard of it, but it was very cute and fall-feeling.

The most autumnal of shows. JZ burst into tears after watching it the first time because it was so aligned with her sensibilities that she felt both grateful and sad (because she wasn't doing work like that).

I haven't seen Over the Garden Wall, so far as I remember anyway. On the list now.

Did a lot of shit today, some of it not finished.

A lot of shit, and you'll get a lot done today. Probably not finish, but that's okay too.

Not sure what will happen, but I feel confident something will happen.

~ma in abundance. Sounds quite stressful.

But I called HR to find out why I hadn't gotten any paper work about COBRA. ...because I'm still employed by them.

Then you still have healthcare? Sounds reasonable to me.

I kind of know how that feels, although not for a while. America doesn't seem to like my sensibilities.

Halloween Horror Nights is open, Delusion is open.

I'm tired.

I have never been to Halloween Horror Nights. Not on purpose, it just has never happened. I hope you are able to catch a nap at some point, ND.

I don't get a paycheck since I don't clock in. I still have health insurance. Part of me wants to just not say anything until thew new health insurance kicks in.

So the Operation Manager said there was another store manager in tbmje stor yesterday doing something and he mentioned how good all the top stock looks. Ops Manager said it was all me and the other store manager wanted to steal me for his store.

And then it got to be 4:20ish and I realized I hadn't taken my second 15 min break. The store manager told me to take it and "I dont want to hea that you aren't taking your breaks. " these are paid breaks. I've never had these been mandatory before .

Way to go, ND!

askye, I’m so glad you get your breaks.

I feel like all I do is complain and apparently the universe really wants me to work on my distress tolerance skills, so I listened to some Pema Chodron yesterday and today I’ve been trying to just notice what I have strong reactions to. Granted, I did not expect a quick fix from Buddhism, but the result today is that I have a mild simmering rage under the surface and I am having a hard time focusing. I did forget my afternoon Adderall, so that might be contributing.

Now i’m getting Spravato. I think I’ll try more Terry Pratchett, that worked well last time. Currently listening to the BBC’s production of Mort.