I am distraught and so angry and full of love and really really glad Nurse Renee got it done.
Xander ,'Chosen'
Natter 77: I miss my friends. I miss my enemies. I miss the people I talked to every day.
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Oh God I am so very sorry. And heartbroken and angry.
Bless Nurse Renee.
So sorry. I've been thinking of you all. So much love to you and JZ and your whole family.
Angry. Sad. They keep flipping back and forth. All, though, tinted with the awareness that, unlike some poor people who will never know what they've missed out on, I've had the blessing of a JZ in my life for as long as I have. I'm greedy. I want more. I'm furious that I don't get to have it, that none of us get to have it, that Hec and the rest of JZ's family doesn't get to have it. But I'm so fucking lucky to have had the time we've had, even if it's not enough.
I can't possibly say it any better than this. I keep trying to, but this. Exactly this.
And I love Nurse Renee. And you all.
Ugh. I was really hoping she’d have an easy and longer time of it than my mom. I hope they can help a bit and she can have/enjoy a few nice things soon.
Goddamn it. Nothing much to say beyond that.
Fuck
Sending all the love.
Dammit. All the words I have right now are swear words. Love to all of you.
Just popping on the add my love and sorrow to the collective. I hope JZ is more comfortable now thanks to the ministrations of Nurse Renee and Hec, I hope you both are feeling all the Buffista love.
I love you guys and I'm so, so sorry.
(Sometimes language is limiting in times like this, reducing big feels to platitudes. It's challenging.)