I discovered I have 40 hours of PTO that I have to use or lose by the end of April. I have it because I haven't used a lot of the time since I got back. And I got a bump in PTO for this year because I've been with the company for over 5 years. So now I get 200 hours of PTO a year. So lots of vacation/sick time I should have been using all along! PLUS I have 10 Personal Days.
So I'm thinking a trip to Florida at end of March/beginning of April and maybe talk to my brother about visiting them in VA. and another trip to Florida in the Fall. and maybe taking the week of my birthday off? who knows
Dammit, JZ. I'm so sorry.
What askye said. I’m so sorry the news is not better. I’m selfishly glad you do have so many in your corner.
I'm so completely not processing and not coping, I'm in awe of and slightly terrified by my denial skills. I do not want to leave this sweet old world.
Oh JZ, I'm so sorry to hear that, and will hope for great results from the current chemo and continued advances in treatment. Love to you and yours.
I'm sorry the news was not as good as you had hoped for, JZ. Yes, I also have a number of friends who have done very well for many years despite advanced stages of cancer. You have had a healthy lifestyle overall, and have wonderful loving support. These things are as important as the good drugs. It is not denial to expect the best outcome.
Well, cancer can go fuck itself.
I always remember what Ginger said, that five-year survival rates are always running five years behind.
even if it is, not all bad, right?
Denial has gotten me through a lot over the years.
(not really the same thing, of course, but...)
I'm sorry it's such a hard diagnosis, JZ, I was hoping for better. But I will keep hoping for those better outcomes! I remember Ginger always saying to remember that the 5-year prognosis was always based on at least 5-year old treatment. Love you!
