Thanks everyone. I have to distract my brain constantly lately because when there is silence my brain starts obsessing over things that we do for the last time without knowing it in a sort of “fruit punch” way.

Jen, that is good to hear about DP.

I had my neurology appointment. I am tentatively going back to work in 2 weeks. PT had been extended for 6 weeks and they need to do an assessment of some kind (I can't remember the name ) to see what my limitations are. I made sure to have her say I can't go back to work until she sees the results of the assessment, so workers comp won't delay things. Also that I'll need transportation to and from work. She asked me about my case worker and I told her I dont have one. Just the guy who is in charge of paying stuff. So I'm not sure how things will get arranged.

I'll go back 3 hours a day 3 days a week, but if that becomes too much I need to tell her.

I'm nervous, mostly because ...a lot of changes at work. New store manager (he used to be an assistant manager at the store and I like him but don't know his style well) new assistant manager, new team lead etc. Plus I'm worried just walking from the employee entrance to the lockers is going to kick in brain fog.

I've slacked off on walking so I need to make sure I get more walking in.

But I've seen a lot of improvement in the past month or so. I wasn't left drained after the neurology appointment.

Also she is going to send in another referral to.a neuro opthomlogist and knows the one in Asheville by name so is going to be specific. Although it could be months before I can see him.

Sj it's always sudden and hard. Even though Grandma Edith was 101 it still wasn't enough time.

I'm nervous, mostly because ...a lot of changes at work.

That's really normal. Nerves and especially with the changes. But just listen to your body and especially your brain, askye.

Recovering from concussions is a process and it sucks. No, I'm not a good role model but I've learned from my mistakes even when concussions make figuring out there is something at the moment to learn difficult.

Keeping you in thoughts, sj.

I’m headed down to Papa’s now. Someone from inpatient hospice is coming to evaluate him today.

I'll be thinking about you today sj and sending lots of love to you and your family.

Cass I keep telling myself I'm not the same and that work will be different because I'm still healing from this. I'm still frustrated as to why it seems to have effected me so badly but...brains are complicated and weird and if I'd had physical therapy soon after maybe I'd be further along...but who knows.

A lot of the nervousness is coming from past experiences and feelings I'm now projecting on to this situation. I am getting better and I can feel the differences which is kind of weird in a way. I had been thinking...a lot of convulated stuff I apparently do to make myself feel bad. Or I would have done in the past. Apparently therapy is really working and some of the inner child, inner parent, inner adult stuff my therapist has been using that I didn't really buy into at the beginning actually works.

I'm so sorry, sj. Much love to you and your family.

Toddson, I'm so glad you're okay.

I've been MIA because we've been up to eyeballs in college stuff. But Robin has chosen DePaul in Chicago, which is awesome.

Apparently therapy is really working and some of the inner child, inner parent, inner adult stuff my therapist has been using that I didn't really buy into at the beginning actually works.

Three cheers for Therapy!

But Robin has chosen DePaul in Chicago, which is awesome.

Three cheers for Robin!

We finished binging Heartstopper and now JZ and I are deep in Severance. Which reminds me in places of Eternal Sunshine and at other times of Memento, and sometimes The Prisoner and also Loki (for the purgatorial office vibe).