I also don't know what to be when I grow up, so while I could change careers, not working at all seems like a really attractive option. Unsustainable, but attractive.

So I dealt with this feeling a few years ago by applying for a masters degree and when I started the program I called myself a "career changer", and now when the other grad students ask why I'm in the program and I say "I'm having an expensive midlife crisis" which they all think is a joke.

In re work - I read Ask A Manager regularly. One recent question from a manager was for an industry that routinely requires 100-hour work weeks (!). They were complaining that they hire young people, spend 18 months training them and then, when they're getting good at their jobs, they leave. It makes the manager's life difficult. One of the commenters suggested the company was in investment banking and I was reminded of the person who worked for, I think, Goldman Sachs and died of overwork.

Day 3 of my vacation was actually productive. Cats were fed, groceries were picked up and put in their proper places, and I went over to mom's to carry in an old door from the garage and hang it on its hinges in the master bedroom.

Shrift getting an ADHD evaluation can be great. Meds can also be great.

There is no beach going because thousands of dead fish are on the beach. Little ones. I'm not joking. Jack , who runs rhe Specimen Marinw Lab and my aunt are coming over to check it out. Well mostly Jack.

Dad is at the beach and has been editing Grandma's obituary. I'm the official typist. He doesn't have a laptop here so he was hand writing things and I typed it on Google Drive. He was impressed with how fast I type on my phone.

Gannett newspapers are horrible. You have to submit a draft to get a quote on the cost of the obituary with no info on how much it could cost. Is it 50 cents a wors? 5 dollars a word? Based on length? No one one knows...

It's very important for my dad and his siblings to share who my grandmother was but they also don't want to spend $1000s on the obituary.

I cut a couple bits and it's still at 585 words.

My aunt B (my dad's sister in law) used the term relentless kindness to describe my grandmother or part of her. And that is kind of in the obit but it got changed to unfailing kindness because Aunt J and dad felt relentless was to...pushy or something. I like the phrase but they get thr final say.

My dad was reading what he wrote to my aunt and he broke down and had trouble reading. It's the first time I've seen him like that in all of this.

I like relentless too, askye, I envision her going, "I *will* be kind and you aren't going to stop me!" But it seems like one of those ones where the people closer to it have stronger feelings, so it's simpler to let them have their way (even if it's a little less *colorful*).

Good luck getting through. {{{askye}}}

One nice thing about the Outlet Sale getting postponed, I won't have to listen to Christmas Music before Halloween! Not that I know for sure that I would have, but that's what they've always played during the sale. Of course, that was when the sale was after Thanksgiving. I think we had XMas music last year when it was earlier in November, also. Before Halloween is really going too far for me.

Good luck, askye.

shrift, are there still potential transfer options?

I mean, there are location transfer and role transfer options that I could look into. I probably could start a list of things I don't want which would be easier than trying to figure out what I DO want. But probably an ADHD evaluation should happen first.

“I’m glad to be paid and have health insurance but excited every day seems like a big stretch”

Yeah, man. My work frequently is interesting and challenging, but I just don't see myself achieving that level of enthusiasm while exchanging labor for monies.

So I dealt with this feeling a few years ago by applying for a masters degree and when I started the program I called myself a "career changer", and now when the other grad students ask why I'm in the program and I say "I'm having an expensive midlife crisis" which they all think is a joke.

One day they'll learn that it's funny because it's true.

In the spirit of the season, I came across a video of making Gomez and Morticia cocktails. The video shows how to make each and the recipe is underneath.

edited to add: There's also a Buffy-inspired Slayer's Blood.

I like the outfits they are wearing while they demonstrate. Nice attention to detail.

I mean, there are location transfer and role transfer options that I could look into. I probably could start a list of things I don't want which would be easier than trying to figure out what I DO want.

This is not a direct reply to you, shrift, but I feel like my story might be useful for everyone who is trying to figure out job stuff? I spent many years going from one similar job to another every few years, mostly switching jobs when I felt like I was failing and didn't want people to find out. At one point, I realized I needed to look at really different kinds of employers, so I started poking around, even places I thought I wouldn't like to work for. I saw this job posting that I didn't really understand -- it looked like it included the parts of my job I was good at, but not the other parts, and I couldn't quite wrap my head around how that would work. I didn't really think I wanted to work for the employer. And the posting said it required experience I definitely didn't have. I've been in that job almost five years now! And I haven't even begun to start looking for my next job!

So just to say, trying things that may not seem like they make sense can really work out.