Willow: Something evil-crashed to earth in this. Then it broke out and slithered away to do badness. Giles: Well, in all fairness, we don't really know about the "slithered" part. Anya: No, no, I'm sure it frisked about like a fluffy lamb.

'Never Leave Me'

Goodbye and Good Riddance: Hey, at least you didn't get a Peloton. (2019)  

Take stock, reflect, butch, moan, vent. We are all here for it.

Laura - Dec 12, 2019 3:21:06 am PST #20 of 140
I didn't know how to respond to the bat-shit crazy. And then I realized I didn't have to. -Victor Infante

That is a whole lot to say about the year, ND.

SailAweigh - Dec 12, 2019 9:25:02 am PST #21 of 140
Nana korobi, ya oki. (Fall down seven times, stand up eight.) ~Yuzuru Hanyu/Japanese proverb

ND, that is momentous.

I had to go look up Peleton. Seems like the folks it would be most useful for would be serious exercise enthusiasts, not the dilettante like me.

Not quite ready to say goodbye to the year yet, even if I don't think too much will change. I've been looking for a new position on campus and the last one I applied for hasn't reached out. It can take them a while sometimes, so I'm being patient. I really hope to be able to say I have that position by the end of they year. My girlfriend put in a good word for me, already. Hee. Pays to have connections.

Fred Pete - Dec 12, 2019 9:34:04 am PST #22 of 140
Ann, that's a ferret.

It feels a little soon for me to be discussing 2019. For now, I'll just say that if 2018 was the year that everything changed, then 2019 was the year of examining who I am after those changes.

Zenkitty - Dec 12, 2019 12:37:43 pm PST #23 of 140
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.

2019 was not a good year for me. My anxiety spiralled out of control and I had to take a month off work. In retrospect, I wish I'd taken two. I got laid off in early October, along with most of my department. It was a total shock to all of us. I spent a month freaking out. Then my beloved cat Leo got sick and he was gone within three weeks. I'm thankful it was quick and he didn't suffer, but I miss him so much. Also I got diagnosed with diabetes earlier this year, and subsequently went on a super-low-carb diet, and I got the diabetes under control and lost 65 pounds (so far). I'm glad about the weight loss, but besides that, this year has been miserable. I'm ready for a new year and a new start.

Jesse - Dec 13, 2019 4:11:02 pm PST #24 of 140
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.

Getting Buffista cards is so fun! I will send mine out eventually.

quester - Dec 13, 2019 4:54:35 pm PST #25 of 140
Danger is my middle name, only I spell it R. u. t. h. - Tina Belcher.

Whoo Hoo, end of year thread. never say 2019! ptui! don't speak of it!

I've gotten 3 cards so far! this is nice. the year may end with unemployment. Do.Not.Want. not that I love my job. I hate it and all of it's anxiety inducing aspects. But, by the end of the year I will be 64, and I don't see my job prospects as very good.

dcp - Dec 13, 2019 4:55:41 pm PST #26 of 140
Empathy for Charlie and Algernon.

2019 started out bad, then got worse. At the beginning of the year my lower back started aching. I figured I had strained something. I treated it with stretching, hot showers, heating pads, and ibuprofen, but it didn't get better. By April I was maxing out on ibuprofen daily. I finally saw a doctor about it. During the exam, the doctor noticed that a lymph node above my collarbone was swollen. There followed various scans and tests and a biopsy, which revealed: fractures in L4 and S1, osteosclerosis, many very swollen lymph nodes, and prostate cancer.

Hormone treatment (Bicalutamide [link] followed by Leuprorelin [link] ) was started in May, and seems to be working. The initial PSA (prostate specific antigen) test result was too high by four orders of magnitude, but is now back down to normal. My lower back is still occasionally sore, but not much, and not often, and ibuprofen still works when I need it.

Chemotherapy was planned to start as soon as possible, but there was a hitch. The first step was outpatient surgery to install a central venous catheter and port [link] . That procedure went well (I got to experience Lidocaine & Fenatanyl & Versed!), but two weeks later - just before the first planned chemo. treatment - some redness appeared in the skin around the port. Blood was drawn, then cultured, and the test came back positive for bacteria: methicillin-sensitive Staph. aureus, otherwise known as MSSA. Not MRSA, thank goodness. I was admitted to the hospital for a week of IV antibotics (Cefazolin [link] ) every 8 hours. The hospital stay and treatment were tedious, and boring, and thankfully both uneventful and successful. While in the hospital the catheter and port were removed.

Once I demonstrated three straight days of clean blood culture tests, I was discharged with a PICC line [link] exiting my right bicep so that I could continue the course of Cefazolin (still every 8 hours) at home - self-administered, but with help available if needed through a home infusion service - for another eleven days. Less boring, but still tedious, and thankfully also uneventful and successful.

There were no further complications. Once the antibiotics course was completed I had the first chemo. session and then the PICC line was removed. For the first time in almost a month I didn't have anything stuck into my arm!

The chemo. was dexamethasone [link] followed by docetaxel [link] via conventional IV, six sessions, three weeks apart, finishing just before Thanksgiving.

As expected with chemotherapy there has been nausea, fatigue, and weakness. Both candied ginger and ginger candies have helped with the nausea. The fatigue and weakness came on slowly, only really noticeable in November and the first week of December. It got to where I could only walk about 50 yards before my knees got wobbly and pulse was pounding so hard I had to stop and rest. It seemed very odd to be experiencing that without also being out of breath. The good news is, my strength and stamina have started coming back - I could tell the difference when I did some grocery shopping a few days ago. I've started trying to meet daily steps and stairs goals again.

Over Labor Day weekend, just before the second chemo. treatment, most of my scalp hair fell out. It wasn't gradual, it was a sudden and dramatic shedding event. At least it came out evenly, not in patches. I shaved off what was left and surprised my family (aunts, uncles, cousins, parents) with the new look. That was entertaining. I've been letting it grow back for about two months now, and there haven't been any repeats of the shedding event, but if it is still this thin in January I might decide to shave it all off again. Lately I've (continued...)

dcp - Dec 13, 2019 4:55:41 pm PST #27 of 140
Empathy for Charlie and Algernon.

( continues...) noticed some loss from my eyebrows, but at least my eyelashes are still with me.

Another side effect has been a change in my perception of taste. For about a week after each chemo. treatment my tongue felt like it had been scalded. Most food tasted burnt. Apples and pears became bland, but not grapes or pineapple. Eventually, most flavors came back. Except ham. Ham has lost all flavor. I hope that comes back someday, I miss it.

I was very fortunate that the side effects from the chemotherapy were pretty mild. I was expecting (and fearing) much worse.

I've been very fortunate to have been able to keep working. Sometimes working from home, but mostly the regular routine at the office.

I am very fortunate to have good health insurance through work. So far the bureaucratic processes have operated smoothly for me.

Prognosis is still to be determined. I won't know whether the chemo. did any good until after another round of scans and tests scheduled for the end of December, followed by a consultation with my oncologist in early January. I am determined not to fret until then, and mostly succeeding.

So, good riddance, 2019! Here's to a better 2020!

-t - Dec 13, 2019 5:12:59 pm PST #28 of 140
Well, not where I'm from. But maybe I'm not there anymore

Oh, wow, dcp. Best wishes and warm thoughts!

Zenkitty - Dec 13, 2019 6:05:12 pm PST #29 of 140
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.

oh gosh, dcp, that's intense. It sounds like you're coping well; I hope you are! Much health ~ma to you.