Every nightmare I have that doesn't revolve around academic failure or public nudity is about that thing. In fact, once I dreamt that it attacked me while I was late for a test and naked.

Willow ,'The Killer In Me'


Goodbye and Good Riddance: Hey, at least you didn't get a Peloton. (2019)  

Take stock, reflect, butch, moan, vent. We are all here for it.


dcp - Dec 13, 2019 4:55:41 pm PST #27 of 140
Empathy for Charlie and Algernon.

( continues...) noticed some loss from my eyebrows, but at least my eyelashes are still with me.

Another side effect has been a change in my perception of taste. For about a week after each chemo. treatment my tongue felt like it had been scalded. Most food tasted burnt. Apples and pears became bland, but not grapes or pineapple. Eventually, most flavors came back. Except ham. Ham has lost all flavor. I hope that comes back someday, I miss it.

I was very fortunate that the side effects from the chemotherapy were pretty mild. I was expecting (and fearing) much worse.

I've been very fortunate to have been able to keep working. Sometimes working from home, but mostly the regular routine at the office.

I am very fortunate to have good health insurance through work. So far the bureaucratic processes have operated smoothly for me.

Prognosis is still to be determined. I won't know whether the chemo. did any good until after another round of scans and tests scheduled for the end of December, followed by a consultation with my oncologist in early January. I am determined not to fret until then, and mostly succeeding.

So, good riddance, 2019! Here's to a better 2020!


-t - Dec 13, 2019 5:12:59 pm PST #28 of 140
Why abandon a well tried system just because it doesn’t work?

Oh, wow, dcp. Best wishes and warm thoughts!


Zenkitty - Dec 13, 2019 6:05:12 pm PST #29 of 140
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.

oh gosh, dcp, that's intense. It sounds like you're coping well; I hope you are! Much health ~ma to you.


P.M. Marc - Dec 13, 2019 7:07:10 pm PST #30 of 140
"Man, i'm covered in pony blood."

Fingers crossed and holy crap.

May ham return to you. That's just unfair.


DavidS - Dec 13, 2019 7:55:22 pm PST #31 of 140
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."

May ham return to you. That's just unfair.

Ham blessings on you!

That's too much.


Beverly - Dec 13, 2019 11:09:30 pm PST #32 of 140
Days shrink and grow cold, sunlight through leaves is my song. Winter is long.

Wow, dcp, that sounds like the unfun kind of carnival ride, but I'm glad the car is...you know what? I'm tired of this metaphor. I'm glad it's been no worse. And yes, may ham return to you.


Shir - Dec 14, 2019 1:37:02 am PST #33 of 140
"And that's why God Almighty gave us fire insurance and the public defender".

Dear lords, dcp. All the ~ma and good wishes in your direction for a much better 2020.


Theodosia - Dec 14, 2019 4:12:16 am PST #34 of 140
'we all walk this earth feeling we are frauds. The trick is to be grateful and hope the caper doesn't end any time soon"

Here's hoping that 2020 is smooth sailing after your horrendous 2019, dcp!


Laura - Dec 14, 2019 11:31:29 am PST #35 of 140
I didn't know how to respond to the bat-shit crazy. And then I realized I didn't have to. -Victor Infante

Getting Buffista cards is so fun! I will send mine out eventually.

I have 3 so far and it makes me very happy.

Damn, dcp! I am so sorry you have been going through so much. Sending love and ~ma for good reports from the next round of tests. Also, thank you for the card!

I am giving 2019 a couple more weeks to get the good list to catch up or surpass the bad.


Shir - Dec 14, 2019 10:45:10 pm PST #36 of 140
"And that's why God Almighty gave us fire insurance and the public defender".

To make things more confusing to you in the US, the only stamps that were available at the post office this morning were of Jewish holidays. Not even Hanukkah, but of other Jewish holidays. I was hoping to the wonderful and vibrant stamps of local wildlife or wildflowers, but nope. Only high holidays stamps (and one of a political leader from the 70s and 80s). Sorry to disappoint.