Partly because I don't know how to stop presenting myself as a competent person to a strange professional person I asking for help, I imagine.
Yes, this is part of it, too. I think I might need a coach to just tell me I am competent, and encourage me to follow through. But right now I am hiding in my bed sick with a cold that I am pretty sure is psychosomatic or caused by stress somehow. But since elementary school I have dedicated a lot of energy toward "appearing" normal, and I am really good at it, so I need someone who can break that down.
Today is my last day at this middle school I've been at since the beginning f the school year. I've been saying goodbye to the kids at the end of each class and gotten some tears--which almost makes up for the kids who go "Yay" when I announce it's my last day. Taking two days off and back to short term subbing next week. I have found out a lot more this past week or so which makes me think it's the right decision to go. I know the classroom management part of it was also a big contributor and I will have to work at that harder, but the lack of administrative support is a big issue.
Aw, Scrappy. That sounds like a tough day. Taking a couple of days before jumping back in to short term sounds really smart.
Actually also taking a sick day - cocooned in blankets watching Marvelous Mrs Maisel just like I wanted. If only some soup and toast would magically appear
Scrappy, good luck with your next assignment.
-t that sounds lovely.
I'm watching a movie while ltc is at school. This afternoon is our last day with her sitter, and I wish I had an answer to how to have more energy.
Sorry, Scrappy.
It feels like everything in my life is on fire right now.
Good luck scrappy!
I've been off work a week and a half but doesn't count. But I feel like I'm wasting precious time off—type A much? "I should be catching up on good tv series! Or learning to knit! Or doing chair yoga!"
I scheduled two weeks off at the beginning of December, because I'll lose time if I don't take it, but I have no idea what I should do with it.
Gud, make time to take care of yourself.
Im sorry, Gud.
Relaxation guided meditations, meara?
Such freedom, Tom! Jelly
