Yep. Nothing I went hmm at would be a stumbling block in her care of ME wrt to my circs & life. But there might be a clash of principles potentially in there. As in, I wouldn't send some friends there. But it was just wisps & tangled up in my whole "yeah, no regular doc for 2 decades-not the boss of me-authority issues-oh god my body is breaking" anxiety fog. "Did you know you're trembling?" No, but I do it at the dentist of a decade too, & I know them & don't dread them anymore, so.

That is major adulting.

I feel like I can do like 1 thing toward a big energy thing a day (in addition to the basics of getting myself up, dressed, to work, and actually do work). Feeding myself seems like it should be on that list as a basic, but it is actually a big energy thing because I need to be eating healthier and not eating out as much.

Other big energy things:

cleaning the house, just regular cleaning
fixing broken things in the house, I have a list of 19 things that need to be done
dealing with stuff that is not in a place, this can be projects - can also be decluttering - can also be filing
anything out of the normal, this includes appts not regularly scheduled (drs, car maintenance, school, getting gifts)

Today I ate at home and went to the gym. I thought I would get started on a home repair, but that turned into my dad saying he'd "help", which means it will be pushed off a few days and done with him directing things and me like holding a flashlight and desperately trying not to have an anxiety attack because it will take longer than I anticipated or he won't consider an approach I'd take or he'll say something about the state of my house. (I've paused mid-post to go straighten up my kitchen counters a bit, wash dishes, and vacuum a rug because of writing that last sentence).

It's bedtime, I can try to do something towards something tomorrow.

I've been more focused on adulting this year, at least in the area of self care. I try and get at least one work thing and one house thing done each day in addition to all the regular have to do stuff. The lists are long. Trying to limit eating out to one dinner and one breakfast or lunch a week. That helps a lot with the diet stuff. This past week I have exercised twice a day most days, beach walk at sunrise then swimming after work. So an hour a day.

I've had to focus inward because all the things out of my control in the world near and far are just overwhelming. Eat well, exercise, get stuff done for work and house. That is something I can do. I'd like to solve the problems of the world, but I just don't have the energy.

I kept hoping that De Blasio was going to not. Oh well.

I kept hoping that De Blasio was going to not. Oh well.

Aside from the complete tone-deafness of a progressive white dude thinking this is his time, everyone I know in NYC who works with/for his office thinks this is a terrible idea. He's FAMOUS for not getting shit done.

Going to buy my son a car today. Actually, he'll end up paying for most of it. He does have a paying internship after all. Anyhow, it's a bright red 2008 Honda Fit with 127k on it for $2,500. It seems to be in good shape aside from a couple minor cosmetic issues.

America's Guide to Bill de Blasio.

I made toast for breakfast and then had no butter, so I had no toast. That's where I'm at this morning.

Hey sarameg, given all the doctoring, how is your health?

Aside from the complete tone-deafness of a progressive white dude thinking this is his time, everyone I know in NYC who works with/for his office thinks this is a terrible idea. He's FAMOUS for not getting shit done.

Sounds like he would fit right in?? (Ugh.)

I have done two performance reviews already this morning, and have one to go before I can eat lunch.

The great mystery of job hunting is why you have to enter all of your fucking job experience AND give them your resume. It's on my resume! That's why I'm giving it to you!