at some point today I should probably log back on to work, but that time is not now.

I came home from therapy and mac had locked me out of the house. He let me back in and now he has left.

I talked to my brother, go him all updated.

And now I have sent off emails to the dog rescue people letting them know about a weekend trip I have in two weeks and letting them know that I'll need to be taking a break from fostering for a while until/if the home situation stabilizes.

Now to reprogram garage door opener and install a flip lock.

Oh msbelle. I'm so sorry it's come to this.

Oh msbelle, I am just so sorry he is being so awful to you and himself.

I just CLOSED THE SPREADSHEET WITHOUT SAVING

I'd say the venti was defective.

And I have done it. my child is locked out of the house with no way in passed the back or front yard.

I am the opposite of fucking great, although I do feel safe and like I can leave the house now.

To counteract the awful-parentness I am also washing all of his clothes and cleaning his room. All the clothes will be hung up and/or folded and shoes are in the closest in boxes and the bathroom has been sprayed down awaiting scrubbing. Before the day is done I am sure I'll have found 2-3 years worth of school stuff to throw away.

{{{msbelle}}} I'm so sorry.

You are so right, Laura! I should have gotten the extended warranty.

msbelle, I'm glad you feel safe now. I don't think you're an awful parent, fwiw.

I'm so sorry to hear that it has come to this msbelle. Family is so hard.

Also, I want to say that I'm continually in awe of how you keep dealing with the situation and moving forward. I'm sure that it may not feel that way from where you are standing, but from this viewpoint you have been an amazing point of stability for your son who is clearly at odds with himself and the world.

Oh msbelle, I wish there was something I could say that would help. Also, you are not even remotely a bad parent.

I'm glad to hear you're talking to a therapist -- you're getting the right (professional) kind of advice and coaching.

R. lost 28 pounds post-surgery when she was in cardiac rehab (less than 3 weeks), which she is in denial about that it was because she was on a controlled diet and not binging when she can get Instacart and Doordash at home, and does. Now she's back to wondering why her insulin dose has to be increased and her blood sugar surges so high. Le Sigh.

I think you're doing an amazing job in a really difficult situation, msbelle. I'm sorry things are so hard.