I'm sorry, msbelle. That sounds awful. I hope he doesn't hurt himself or you or your relationship too badly while he gets to wherever he needs to be to figure stuff out.

In brighter news - I indulged myself with a lemon cake pop AND a slice of lemon loaf when I stopped at Starbucks, haven't eaten them yet. And it's my coworker's birthday, one of the supervisor's made pineapple upside down cake to celebrate, so I have some of that, too. I may, in fact, be the girl with the most cake right now.

I'm so sorry. He seems both paralyzed by indecision and angered by it so he's hitting out at the nearest object. Is there anybody else in his life who could intervene?

Sometimes you have to hit bottom in order to get your head right, but I'm worried that as a black-and-foreign kid bottom could be very perilous for him, now that he's over 18 and likely to get kicked around by the TX legal system if he steps out of line.

I do not think he will hurt himself. No indications of that.

I am taking steps to that he will not have access to the house unless I want him to know about it, so harming me should be not an issue.

Our relationship can recover - it will be up to him if there is a relationship. He may leave and never reach out again.

at some point today I should probably log back on to work, but that time is not now.

I came home from therapy and mac had locked me out of the house. He let me back in and now he has left.

I talked to my brother, go him all updated.

And now I have sent off emails to the dog rescue people letting them know about a weekend trip I have in two weeks and letting them know that I'll need to be taking a break from fostering for a while until/if the home situation stabilizes.

Now to reprogram garage door opener and install a flip lock.

Oh msbelle. I'm so sorry it's come to this.

Oh msbelle, I am just so sorry he is being so awful to you and himself.

I just CLOSED THE SPREADSHEET WITHOUT SAVING

I'd say the venti was defective.

And I have done it. my child is locked out of the house with no way in passed the back or front yard.

I am the opposite of fucking great, although I do feel safe and like I can leave the house now.

To counteract the awful-parentness I am also washing all of his clothes and cleaning his room. All the clothes will be hung up and/or folded and shoes are in the closest in boxes and the bathroom has been sprayed down awaiting scrubbing. Before the day is done I am sure I'll have found 2-3 years worth of school stuff to throw away.

{{{msbelle}}} I'm so sorry.

You are so right, Laura! I should have gotten the extended warranty.

msbelle, I'm glad you feel safe now. I don't think you're an awful parent, fwiw.