I'm sorry, meara. It's gonna suck, but those that reach out to help, they want to. I get the chafing (panic) about being so limited. It's scary & vulnerable making. Just take small bites of the future for now.
Kaylee: So how many fell madly in love with you and wanted to take you away from all this? Inara: Just the one. I think I'm slipping.
'Serenity'
Natter 76: Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Foaminess
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
sarameg - Oct 07, 2018 6:28:00 pm PDT #523 of 30019
-t - Oct 07, 2018 6:57:29 pm PDT #524 of 30019
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
Yeah, that sounds like it will be hard. I'm sorry. Also super glad you have someone to stay with!
meara - Oct 07, 2018 11:10:25 pm PDT #525 of 30019
Ugh now I'm super paranoid and can't tell if I have further fucked up the leg, or it's just the normal pain expected and the feeling of having a strong splint, or if my leg is secretly swollen and about to explode and I should already be in the ER again...(pretty sure it's 2, with a possible side of 1, but the fact that a couple times now as I fall asleep I try to jerk my leg/ankle/foot and wake myself up in a lot of pain is not good. But I am so so tired)
juliana - Oct 08, 2018 3:26:03 am PDT #526 of 30019
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…
meara, I'm available all day (with bonus Peanut), if you need anything (including caffeine and/or a ride to the airport).
Laura - Oct 08, 2018 3:49:48 am PDT #527 of 30019
Our wings are not tired.
Oh meara, I can only imagine the added complexity of being away from home. Yes, remember that people who offer help mean it. I have a nice no stairs house, but a bit geographically inconvenient.
~ma for good drugs and quick resolution to all the logistics.
Zenkitty - Oct 08, 2018 4:34:11 am PDT #528 of 30019
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
Oh, meara, you poor thing! I'm sorry the overnight in the ER was so awful. Also sorry you reacted so badly to the opioids. Are they giving you enough pain meds? Make them give you enough to last until you can get more!
Can you try to get the airline to bump you up to first class for the flight home? You'll appreciate the extra legroom, believe me.
David, you rock.
Dana - Oct 08, 2018 4:41:42 am PDT #529 of 30019
"I'm useless alone." // "We're all useless alone. It's a good thing you're not alone."
the fact that a couple times now as I fall asleep I try to jerk my leg/ankle/foot and wake myself up in a lot of pain is not good.
I'm sure this is too late to help, but I remember this from my ankle surgery, which was far less traumatic. Your body does those involuntary twitches as you fall asleep, and if you've had, say, an ankle operated on, a twitch hurts like hell.
meara - Oct 08, 2018 4:48:48 am PDT #530 of 30019
Yeah, I feel like it's a very normal twitch, but it still hurts enough to wake me up!
Thanks for offers of help—made it back to Seattle last night, am in a friend's guest room. But still freaking out a lot.
-t - Oct 08, 2018 5:06:03 am PDT #531 of 30019
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
I can see that. It's a lot to suddenly change. I think some wailing and gnashing of teeth might be appropriate.
Dana - Oct 08, 2018 5:28:16 am PDT #532 of 30019
"I'm useless alone." // "We're all useless alone. It's a good thing you're not alone."
Monday morning, gotta call my insurance company. Suuuuper fun.