To which Dad said cheerfully, "She knows more about my health and medications than I do!" at which point the Kill Bill sirens went off in my head.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh. *flail*
I always thought the name Serenity had a vaguely funereal sound to it.
Simon ,'Out Of Gas'
Natter 76: Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Foaminess
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Dana - Sep 15, 2020 6:17:31 pm PDT #26246 of 30019
I'm terrifically busy with my ennui.
Steph L. - Sep 15, 2020 6:24:08 pm PDT #26247 of 30019
I look more rad than Lutheranism
To which Dad said cheerfully, "She knows more about my health and medications than I do!" at which point the Kill Bill sirens went off in my head.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh.
It's possible when he said that, the nurse practitioner noticed my eyes pop out of my head like a cartoon character.
DavidS - Sep 15, 2020 6:42:33 pm PDT #26248 of 30019
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
Because what I can't untangle in my brain is that withdrawing from caretaking for my 78-year-old father as his care needs are increasing makes me beneath contempt, because what fucking kind of lousy sociopathic selfish daughter does that?
But you do seem to understand that (a) your dad has been a total asshole about this stuff; and (b) that he does not take responsibility for his own health, including actively doing things which could kill him.
Steph L. - Sep 15, 2020 6:50:47 pm PDT #26249 of 30019
I look more rad than Lutheranism
Because what I can't untangle in my brain is that withdrawing from caretaking for my 78-year-old father as his care needs are increasing makes me beneath contempt, because what fucking kind of lousy sociopathic selfish daughter does that?
But you do seem to understand that (a) your dad has been a total asshole about this stuff; and (b) that he does not take responsibility for his own health, including actively doing things which could kill him.
Absolutely. I know that it's not sociopathic or selfish to take care of myself, and that any grown-ass adult could have spent the last 28 years creating and strengthening a support system -- or even just one single other person -- instead of putting it all on his daughter.
I'm really just talking through the painful conflict between what I rationally know up here t taps brain and what perhaps incorrect emotions I feel in here t taps heart and figuring out how to reconcile them. Or, if not reconcile them, make peace with being on Team Brain Who Wants Steph To Take Care Of Herself.
dcp - Sep 15, 2020 6:55:31 pm PDT #26250 of 30019
The more I learn, the more I realize how little I know.
Xenoethnography
chrismg, I'm enjoying that. Unexpected. Thanks for the rec.
DavidS - Sep 15, 2020 6:57:32 pm PDT #26251 of 30019
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
Team Brain Who Wants Steph To Take Care Of Herself.
We are all on that team.
Except your dad who wants you to take care of his feckless ass even if it wrecks you.
(I'm a little resentful about this, but not as angry as I am with Gud's abusive wife.)
Steph L. - Sep 15, 2020 7:06:22 pm PDT #26252 of 30019
I look more rad than Lutheranism
I'm a little resentful about this
I appreciate the resentment. I mean that 100% seriously.
Dana - Sep 15, 2020 7:12:21 pm PDT #26253 of 30019
I'm terrifically busy with my ennui.
"They fuck you up, your mum and dad."
Steph L. - Sep 15, 2020 7:13:34 pm PDT #26254 of 30019
I look more rad than Lutheranism
Truer words, man.
-t - Sep 15, 2020 9:05:31 pm PDT #26255 of 30019
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
That sounds like a really positive appointment. Weekly therapy absolutely sounds like a great idea. Go Team Brain Who Wants Steph To Take Care Of Herself! *\\o/*