Just over here serial posting like the ball of anxiety, I am.

Whether positive or negative in testing, the toll this is taking on everyone with the stress load is significant.

My current issue is I see no way out of my anxiety.

I am trying to mantra myself with - I can only control how I react and what I do - .

The only way out is through. That's a giant pain in the ass, and it doesn't help those who are sick and dying., but it's also kind of comforting. Because there will be a "through" and there will be progress, and hopefully we'll be a better country after this. We better fucking learn something.

My work has had a second staff member test positive (not at my location) and the HAVOC just one positive test wreaks on staffing is immense. They closed the location for a day, and are trying to continue staffing with people who did not work with the positive. (People who did work with the positive are to get a test and quarantine 14 days even if it's negative.) We are very quickly going to run out of staff and have to close locations.

Now imagine if we were a public high school with 3000 students and hundreds of teachers and staff. The mind boggles.

Now imagine if we were a public high school

More than 40 Bay Area school principals in quarantine after in-person meeting

My current issue is I see no way out of my anxiety.

I am trying to mantra myself with - I can only control how I react and what I do - .

Meditation helps me somewhat -- because it sure doesn't fix the source of the anxiety, and it doesn't really make the anxiety go away, but it does help dial the anxiety down for a while, and at this point in the hellscape that is our lives, I'm taking "a little less anxiety for a little while" as a win.

The meditation app I use is called MyLife (it used to be called Stop, Breathe, and Think -- I have no idea why they changed it).

I am doing a combo of sleep meditations and sleep training things every night.

I gave feedback to the reopening plan for the schools here and I had 2 "what the actual fuck?" moments:

1)Apparently, while people who have travelled have to self-quarantine at home, other people in the household are free to go about their lives.

2)They're planning on treating classes as cohorts or families, with reduced distancing within that unit. But if someone tests positive, only that person has to self-quarantine. The rest of the class can carry on as usual. I registered my concern about this policy (as well as questions about staff who work in classrooms, but not just one class and substitute teachers)

school seems so fraught. I do not see how it can work.