Something that just occurred to me yesterday:

On Mother's Day, we went over to my mom's. My mom and stepdad have been exceptionally cautious with coronavirus precautions -- they get their groceries with ClickList so they don't have to go in the store, they don't go anywhere (other than picking up groceries), they're in full-on hermit mode to stay safe. So I offered to just leave her present on the porch so we didn't have to interact in person, but Mom decided we could visit by sitting in the driveway in camp chairs 6 feet apart [definitely no hugging], which we did for about an hour. And despite any issues I've had/continue to have with my mom, it was really, really good to see her and my stepdad in person.

So I thought, hey, we could do that with my dad, too -- visit and stay 6 feet apart. Except, no. Because he's STILL working at Kroger (even though he doesn't need to financially), so every damn day increases his exposure and chance of getting/carrying Covid-19, even if he's asymptomatic. And you know what? I am obsessed with doing everything I can to keep Tim safe, since he's higher risk due to the immunosuppressants he takes for his RA. I was comfortable visiting my mom and stepdad because they see NO ONE; the closest they come is when the ClickList person puts the groceries in their trunk. But Jesus, my dad works at a grocery store. Every shift, he's exposed to so damn many people that I genuinely can't believe he's still healthy (or asymptomatic). I won't take the risk of seeing him in person, even at 6 feet away.

And that sucks. I'm still angry at him for choosing to work when he doesn't need to, and I'm also really sad, because I have no idea when I'll get to see him in person again. If it were just me, I'd probably visit him. But, to every extent possible, my #1 priority is NOT increasing Tim's risk. It has to be. God damn it.

I just needed to vent about that, because it sucks. I know we're all in similar situations (or in the same ballpark, basically; I sure the fuck hope that no one else's 76-year-old heart patient father is insisting on working at a grocery store even though he doesn't need to financially).

I'm sorry, Tep. I hope he is actually well but of course you are right to be protective of Tim.

OK. Getting dressed. Ugh.

My parents are being very sensible. I didn't have any reason to think they wouldn't, but you never know with parents.

I'm sorry, Teppy. I'm grateful most of my loved ones are being responsible.

Both my inlaws and my mom and stepdad are starting to go out more, and I know they're going to want to start visiting soon. But I'm not ready for that.

Groceries acquired - including 4 single rolls of toilet paper! [angelic choir]

Now I need to lie down for a bit

I started drinking before I ate. not great. also have not had any water yet today. also not great.

eating now. having water now.

Timelies all!

Had to go into work this morning to process some samples. Didn't take all that long, luckily.

I just had my check up over the phone yesterday! Did have to go to the lab on Thursday, but they screened me and it took 10 minutes.

My numbers sucked and I asked my NP if anyone was doing BETTER in lockdown.

Point made.

I am now on a statin. Fuck.

Cashmere, I have been on a statin for a few years now, and I just have accepted it. I eat pretty healthy: mostly whole grains, not a lot of meat (although too much cheese and wine), lots of vegetables, a fair amount of oatmeal. I run 3-4 times/week. And I just can't get my numbers down (although they were really low after finishing Kilimanjaro!). So I accept that it's partly genetic, and also I'm not going to go full vegan. I need cheese in my life!

But Kaiser is pretty chill about the whole thing: I can renew my prescription online and they mail it to me. It's really not a big deal.