I am feeling like an excellent neighbor because I just delivered margaritas to my neighbors.

Man, I need neighbors like that.

I am sitting here with my headset on until 9 pm, waiting for any of my students to webex in for online office hours, and feeling a bit like the Maytag repairman. Had exactly zero out of 100 check in from my uni course this afternoon. I did have two from the community college (out of 17) earlier this evening, so it hasn't been a complete waste.

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Dude, Jesse, you are the BEST neighbor.

that said, I'm not short on alcohol, but I would love a fancy cocktail made with 7 ingredients. I can half-ass a manhattan or an old-fashioned or a margarita, but I would love to get a Carter Beats the Devil or one of the designer cocktails they make at some of my favorite places. I was looking at some of the restaurant websites, but most of the to-go cocktails are in units of 2 or 4, which is more than I really need...

That's what I've been saying! I know I could make infused syrups and shrubs and whatever bullshit, and between my mother and me we have a bunch of kinds of liquor, but I want SOMEONE ELSE to do it!

Feeling hard all ya'll dealing with bullshit. Right now my bullshit feels very internal -- I've been having way more lows than usual, which is understandable, but still very frustrating. My shit is negatively together. It is frustrating.

Fancy cocktails do sound nice.

I did acquire flour, however -- one of my favorite bakeries is open for call in and counter service, and they had flour directly from their mill bagged for purchase. I have no idea what I will use it for any time soon, but I do feel kind of shiny for having it.

The yeast I ordered ages ago, and the bread mixes I ordered because I couldn't get yeast, all came in on the same day. Of course, and I have also lost the early urges I had to bake. I just want to go to a bakery and have everything made for me thank you very much.

I made blackberry-vanilla syrup today for blackberry old fashioneds. [link]

The syrup seemed a bit vanilla heavy, so I upped the blackberries. I doubt I'll regret that. Anyway, that's for my team's zoom happy hour tomorrow. I've been drinking with my coworkers way more since I stopped physically working with them. Probably because I'm a lightweight, booze wise, and now I don't have to drive home.

There are definitely worse things than only drinking at home!

And that sounds delicious.

I tried half of a Trazodone last night around 7, and started feeling really sleepy around 8, which was pretty amazing. (OTOH, I've been sleeping really badly and probably running something of a deficit.)

Definitely not as awake as perhaps would be desired today, though caffeine helped some.

Whee! Science experiments with my own brain!